Hi guys. I achieved many things. I quitted my camgirl addiction over 5 months ago. Lost weight, read a lot and learned a lot. Formed new habbits, searching for a job and yeah. Advanced a lot. Usually my apparmtent was a mess, but I even developed a habit to have everything always clean. Even Craftsman who have been visting me to fix my heater system said, they never saw such a cleaned aparment from a single guy. I had my manga reading addiction under control and learned, instead of numbing myself, to confront my thougth and feelings, write them down and work on them, so they dissapear, I learn something new and finish the past and keep going. Also stopped alcohol. But I have a new girl I liked, and I have feelings for her. But I am confused. As I build up new feelings for her and I noticed I am not over the old relationships. And many in this forum helped me to understand what I did wrong in my first relationship, and I implemented every advice that were given here, and, that girl know everything about my past, and I can trust her, she can trust me, and we are best friends and do little things for each other. I even learned to control myself without restriced devices: 14 days. Used only my laptop for learning, making documents and checking emails. Smartphone for socialising and tablet for learning (other themes), making documents or manage habits and achievments.I kept learning, my mind sorted informations right and I achieved more and more a growth mindset. And I reached 14 days without restrictions on my devices. Flatline was kicking in, only the sexual organs and the libido went away, I even was disgust by thinkinh about porn or watching it. This was a huge success for me. But my emotions were stable as hell. So the mother of my exgf visited me after 5 months, and I was not against it, I saw it as a chance to grow further. She was like 8 hours at my aparmtent, made her food and we talked a lot. And I grew stronger. She presented my with a perfume that my exgf chose me. And here is what happened: A few days later my feelings for my exgf came up. I suddenly missed her and her body, she has Cup D size breast and is very beautiful. But I learned beauty is not everything. And my current gf has Cup size AA and does not look (rational) beautiful, but in my heart she is and I find her cute and she is my best friend. Never thought I would fell in love who was totally my type(only thinking about the body cause I am porn damaged and my ex had huge boobs that were very comfortable and soft). And when the feelings came up I was confused and scared that I started to early an relationship and I thought did I went overboard or something. And I watched camgirls, did not do it with them, I drank alcohol, I read mangas, i stopped my habits and my apparment is a mess.My insecurities about my dick came back, if it is enough for her or not and so on... I don`t know what to do guys.