Day 2 Hello, New Year. You may have noticed that I reset my counter. This is not due to any relapse to PMO (free 182 days since Jul 8, 2019). However, over the break I did flirt with some P-subs. I watched an anime movie with nudity, which wasn't exactly gratifying, but certainly not helpful. I also let my eyes linger on a few Steam games. The other reason I reset my counter is to reflect a clarification of goals. I want to include my attitude toward my wife as one of my boundaries. So, for clarification, my goals for the new year are: No PMO under any circumstances No willful P-sub use (including searching alone) No resentment of my wife due to perceived sexual neglect I think these are boundaries that can be reasonably measured and maintained. Furthermore, I'd like to refine the purpose for this journal. I will use this space for recording any significant recovery events (relapses, progress, questions, etc). I will also use it as a way to foster gratitude, which I think is the primary attribute I'm lacking presently. I take my wife and life for granted, and often do not ponder how blessed I am. Furthermore, I then harbor resentment when I'm not receiving what I think I'm entitled to. So, with each entry, I will be recording at least three items I am grateful for, for each of the following subjects: Something positive about God Something positive about my wife Something positive about my life Finally, I will be more selective in the entries I read here on NoFap. Any posts containing explicit details of sex or intimacy are not helpful to me, they trigger me to feel neglected and resentful towards my wife. Onward and upward, NF friends!