Making the decision.

Next24

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I'm making the decision of doing my 90 days reboot. 3 days already NoFap, but scared of what's about to come and how I'm going to walk this path.

I'm male, 48 yo. Starting with erotic/porn magazines at about 12 years old, on M for years, often with no porn involved. And then growing my addiction as internet was growing.

Realising that PMO has conditioned most of my life, it's been a drag, something that's kept me from being myself. Instead, so many times, for years, I've been an addict, being some 40% of what I can be? 60%? Who knows. Many times I'm positive it's taken me to do things or behave in a way that's not me at all. Also it worsened my shyness and social anxiety. Worst of all I think it made overall a weaker person, psychologically.

Many times and for long periods (I believe, this was many years ago) I've been away from P and even from M, when I had important things to do, goals: Life goals. This morning I read how important these are in the journey to quit porn. It's rewarding for me to see how on myself, and just by intuition I was able to quit a few times in my life, for months.

Why I went back? Maybe I just didn't know how harmful it was. Indeed it's a way to take a break from your life, and all the stressors and difficult moments.
Yet, of course, I've learnt that this is not a solution, it only makes the problem worse, and eventually there's a new much bigger problem to solve.

Glad I met this place, some Youtube channels, some books... all for guidance.
Feeling thankful to all the people providing support.
And looking forward to solving my problem and being useful to the community.
 
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