Male, 26, East Coast, Looking for multiple partners to form support group

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by unv23, Nov 7, 2017.

  1. unv23

    unv23 Fapstronaut

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    Hi everyone,

    This is going to be a long post so brace yourself...probably a good thing that it's going to be long because what I am looking for are people who on top of just being accountability partners are really looking to get deeper and talk about themselves and try to help each other out by essentially being a cross between something of an objective therapist and a supportive friend. One of the things I think porn does so well is give you something that helps you feel good temporarily but in the long term increasingly isolates yourself from real life whether it is yourself, your goals, your problems, or your relationships and others. The more porn you watch, the more you forget about yourself, who you want to be, what your strengths and weaknesses are, and also most importantly all the other people in your life.

    And having tried NoFap for quite some time, I think what I have realized is that sometimes you do need to talk to others to get out of your own head and to see different perspectives and maybe those things will help you see things differently and give you solutions that you never would have arrived to on your own. Sometimes even, talking is all you need from turning an idea or a feeling in your head in to something you can act on and make concrete. And on top of all of this, I know most if not all of us here have some shame and negative feelings towards ourselves for this addiction...but there is no shame in getting help from others. No man is an island yet when we are in front of a screen with pornography in it, we can forget that and think that for that brief moment the best thing for us is to hide and be alone and forget about the rest of the world and everyone else and all the problems and hardships in it. But we can beat that! And part of it is learning how to be yourself again and be comfortable being yourself around others. And so I think this is something perhaps all of us needs. Especially those of us who have really retreated and been out on their own emotionally for some time.

    So, a little bit about myself...I'm 26, live in the East Coast of the US, and was introduced to NoFap maybe 2 years ago but have long been aware of the negative effects porn has had on my mental, emotional, physical health, and also my relationships. Maybe when I was first introduced to pornography as a curious and horny teenager, it was just innocent and fun and games. Just some thing teenage boys did and talked about. But by the time I was in high school, I already felt like it was something I used as an escape and a crutch. And even when I was in relationships, I felt like I was never really being myself. And that my use, or more like, abuse, of pornography was something to hide and be ashamed of because it has taken up such a big part of my life and is such a crutch and weak point for me.

    So having already attempted something similar of my own but never really getting that far, when I first found NoFap it was quite helpful. Thanks to it, I was able to build up a streak of over 2 months. But I never got to 90 days. It's been two years. And I have never given up that goal. But I know I can't just keep brute forcing it and willing myself to 90 days. This whole time, I felt like it was something I just had to try harder at and get through on my own. No one else could help. But it hasn't worked. Half a year ago, I decided to start speaking to a therapist about it, and it was really difficult to talk about at first but it has helped. And even though I still have never reached 90 days so far, my focus has started to shift on not just fulfilling a 90 day challenge, but everything else that comes after it. Because really, at least for me, it isn't really like I abuse pornography and whatever substances because there is an actual physical need for it that I can't stop or fight off like hunger or some physical addiction to like heroin or whatever where you would go in to withdrawal. When forced to, maybe because I am camping or in an environment where I don't have much alone time, I have lasted plenty long of a time without PMO without any physical pains or side effects. It also isn't like I must have sex or must be in a relationship with someone so badly that 90 days with no PMO is the only way to achieve it. I could be in a relationship right now or maybe even be having sex right now probably if I really really wanted to but it may not be a healthy or meaningful one. So what I am saying is, I know for a fact, that I watch pornography because there is something else in my life that I am running or trying to escape from. Maybe it's negative emotions, maybe its stress, maybe it's physical pain, maybe its fear of hard work, or loneliness or anger or boredom or whatever. But porn is a crutch. And I want to learn how to live without crutches. Because they are holding me back from becoming healthy, happy, prosperous and in general, the person I want to become.

    So I am not in this for some religious reason (though I am absolutely open minded to those who are). I am not part of this community also with an end goal in mind of quitting a porn habit so that I can start feeling confident and date real life people again or whatever. Trust me, you can be in relationships or even be married and still be addicted to porn. One of my good childhood friends would never admit to being addicted to porn, it was just something he did daily despite being married, but very unhappily married and stressed out and angry at life. And the last time I checked up on him, he was cheating and drunk at any chance he could have been. So even for someone in a relationship or even having sex regularly, porn is something that can be used to fill a hole in your life unhealthily. So beyond just porn, I am interested first and foremost in self-development. And learning to live with myself, and improve myself, and be the person I can be proud enough of that I can open myself up and share the real me with others. I don't want to rely on porn, drugs, TV, video games, food, or anything so that I can run from my feelings, my real life stress, my failures/setbacks, my weaknesses or any of that stuff which makes me want to run away from real life and retreat in to my cave and stare at a screen of other people having sex to numb myself.

    That is the key to me. Porn is one aspect of the problem. I may be succesful in quitting porn but it would mean nothing if all I did was replace that with a gambling addiction or addiction to working out and being thin for example or even being in a relationship. Believe me, I have seen friends and loved ones with serious issues like bulimia, self-harm, PTSD, anger/domestic violence and other issues because they can't live with themselves and force themselves to stay in hurtful relationships. So just being with someone or being able to go on a date or meet a girl or a boy shouldn't be a goal of NoFap to me. The real work is done when you can look yourself honestly in the mirror and in your heart and feel like you want to be that person. The real work is turning off the computer or the phone and getting back to real life and all of its ups and downs and learning how to keep growing and becoming who you want to be.

    With that said, I am open to talking with anyone. Of any background. Maybe it would help facilitate conversation if we were a similar age or sex and have already had some experiences with NoFap and obviously failure at NoFap but none of it is a necessity. The only thing that I am really looking for are people who are willing to not just be accountability partners but someone who sees this all as a journey to self-development and want to be open and go deeper than the superficial stuff to share and help each other in achieving their goals and hopefully in that process, also help themselves. I don't have any firm ideas yet on what are the best methods of communication but it would be great to get at least a handful of people in a group and all get to know each other. Maybe a whatsapp group or Discord or something. But basically it would be great to get a bunch of people here that all want to be able to just talk freely. Whenever. About as much or as little of stuff as they want. But I really do believe that we can learn a lot from each other and that sometimes we may have the answer in our brains already or the idea of it, but those things don't materialize or become truths until we are ready to talk about it and then maybe even put our words in to action.

    So yeah, if there are like minded people out there who want to go beyond just the daily check-in and are willing to talk freely and deeply about their goals and their problems and all of that self-development stuff, let me know! I will wait a couple days to see what the responses to this are like and then go from there and figure out some platforms for communication and maybe some like conversation starters or topic threads we can all contribute to. And maybe even find a time every week where we can all talk online or whatever. Maybe this could end up being like some sort of online mini AA thing. That could be really helpful I imagine.
     
    Last edited: Nov 7, 2017
  2. Hey man, I can or even most of the people here can relate to what you are conveying here. I am myself looking for self development and discipline. I have ambitions and goals and I have feeling that I am meant to do something great in life. I am myself looking to connect with real world and real people with real emotions.

    I am a 24 year old male in Boston. I am graduate student in engineering and I recently(3 days counter) joined NoFap. I am up for being a AP. I am sure there will be more like minded people who will be willing to form a group.
     
  3. unv23

    unv23 Fapstronaut

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    Hey man. Thanks for replying! I am on day 4 actually. I will DM you right now and we can set something up as a short term means of getting to know each other and communicating to help hold each other accountable.

    By the way, big fan of your choice of David Gilmour for your display picture.
     
  4. I did not receive it.
    Thanks! David Gilmour is my favorite artist. :)
     
  5. bimarried

    bimarried Fapstronaut

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    I’d really like to do this. Is there a private way of communicating rather than posting in a public forum?
     
  6. unv23

    unv23 Fapstronaut

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    Yeah sorry about that. Saw your post right before I was getting ready to go to bed so half typed out a message but got too drowsy and my sentences stopped making sense so I left it to complete today. See below.

    Yes, absolutely. I was just about to reach out to the poster above you last night about finding an easy to use and discrete means to stay in touch. I am open to sharing emails or numbers or putting in some effort to open up a private discord or other sort of chatroom channel for this group.

    I also saw a pretty great idea someone else posted on a penpaling site where the penpals open up a shared private blog so that the people with access to the blog just post daily reports or journal entries and it doesn't necessarily have to be addressed to each other but if their penpal wants to comment on it and start a conversation about something, they can, and if not, that is also fine, and they can post their own entries and have it be completely unrelated to the earlier posts. So basically its like journal keeping but for a shared few people and also with the options to start conversations.

    I really like the idea because it one encourages a good habit to help you decompress and become more aware of what you may be feeling or dealing with or what you might need to get off your chest. So in general it just encourages you to regularly find a way to express yourself. And two, once you start writing and expressing these ideas maybe they form more concretely and help you realize something or strengthen your commitments and when a moment comes up where you want to have a peek or engage in any sort of binging behavior, thats the stuff that will come back to your mind and help you gain back control of your thoughts.

    It can also just be like a shared progress log where we can see what has helped each other and learn from each other's experiences. For example, one of the things that has helped me most with handling my urges is to stop for a second and think about what might be the real reason why I want to be watching porn instead of going to bed at a sensible time, or instead of going to the gym, or instead of eating well, or making the effort to go hang out with a friend etc. I just pause for one second and force myself to put down the laptop or whatever and just write down a reason why I might feel like I need a relief so badly. Maybe I am feeling lonely, maybe I am frustrated about the day, maybe I am bored, whatever it is, I write down a sentence and 9 times out of 10 after I have done that, my mind clears and I feel like I regain control and instead of thinking about porn, my mind has already shifted to thinking about solutions for these problems. So I am thinking about what to do to tackle my loneliness, or my frustrations, or my boredom or whatever and that is enough to motivate me to not seek out pornography or cigarrettes or alcohol or whatever.

    Maybe to start, we can just exchange emails or open up a Discord channel or something like that to keep in touch more casually but I think in the long run, if we want to be commited to not just 90 days but a life time of not relying on substance abuse, then it is good to build habits that encourage expressing yourself and becoming more aware of how you are feeling physically, mentally, and emotionally, and also becoming more comfortable sharing these things with people who care about you. If a shared blog can facilitate that I think that could be a really great idea. Thoughts? (I will check back in at the end of the night and send out messages or invites to whatever depending on your replies).
     
  7. bimarried

    bimarried Fapstronaut

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    So I found private messaging.
     
  8. bimarried

    bimarried Fapstronaut

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    Sent you my number.
     
  9. riy1126

    riy1126 New Fapstronaut

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    I have about three years of NoFap experience which includes count less relapse and many more than 50 day streaks. NoFap helps me to understand more about myself and its life changing. But I am still vulnurable to relapse. I have tried NoFap for three years alone but it would be great if we can be accountable and support each other
     
  10. I like the shared blog idea but first let’s get in touch via an easy medium of communication. I’m open to discord or email. Send me an invite over through private message. Looking forward to it.
     
  11. unv23

    unv23 Fapstronaut

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    I think Discord sounds fine. There is a phone app for it and it allows us to maintain a certain level of anonymity and it is a medium where we can have actual voice conversations too if we feel like it down the line. I will set it up and PM everyone.

    As for trying and failing NoFap on your own, that is what this is all set up to counter! Like I said, porn is something that already isolates you and makes you more disjointed from the real world so the goal isn't just to quit porn but all of the other stuff that comes with living well and propserously and that includes building relationships and expressing yourself, sharing with others, listening to others, etc. etc. so hopefully this is what a group like this can help facilitate.
     
  12. slimboy

    slimboy New Fapstronaut

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    24 y/o male from Ohio here with a couple years of Nofap failure. This sounds like a great idea. Can I join?
     
  13. Dente

    Dente Fapstronaut

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    19 yrs Portugal i'm younger but i'm into self development and not here for religious stuff too so if there's space i'd like to join.
     
  14. unv23

    unv23 Fapstronaut

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    Hey Slimboy and Dente, you guys are both absolutely welcome to join. I've been away for the weekend but will be back home tomorrow evening. I will send you both the Discord link then. For now, stay strong!
     
  15. BPat

    BPat Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys, would be keen to join if you'll have me. 25 year old male from Australia here. Going for no PM, five days in. Would be good to talk more deeply about stuff.
     
  16. Icandothis3214

    Icandothis3214 New Fapstronaut

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  17. unv23

    unv23 Fapstronaut

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    Invites have been sent. Hope to see you all participating in the Discord soon. Speak your mind freely and lets get to know each other and each other's goals.
     
  18. Aklaborer

    Aklaborer Fapstronaut

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    Can i get an invite too?
    26 M east coast.
     
  19. BrentG

    BrentG Fapstronaut

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    Hey 25 y/o male from the US central time zone, I'd be interested in joining as well if it hasn't gotten too big already. I've tried the one person AP and it wasn't as successful as I would of liked. Probably more my fault than anyones though.
     
  20. jessewut

    jessewut Fapstronaut

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    Hope you guys don't have too many yet, 25 y/o male from NYC, just getting back into nofap and very interested in joining. I like your perspective, and I see the issue similarly. Any way I could get an invite too?
     

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