Male 31 - Trying, Wanna start a journey with NoFap

Hi,

Being from a south indian - Little orthodox family, i couldnt make a best friendship with girls. Studied only in boys school. i have been controlled and not to allow play games with my neighbours boys. Always i have been scolding by others and no point of motivation from my family. the only thing i had a best time with my old BPL TV. watched lot of cartoons, popeye, flintstones, scooby doo, tom and jerry, dexter....

from childhood, i had a interest to watch women without dress. this thought turned me to push myself to peep inside the neighbours bathrooms. at my 9th std, i started watching PORN. at my 11 th std - one fine sunday. i started masturbation with raveena tandon fake pic. this habit continued - daily once, twice..sometimes thrice . Still i m doing this. i tried many times to leave this habit. when i was in POST GRADUATION, i started to search a girl friend to overcome this habit. because i had a thought that if the girl comes, i will change my mind.

Yes a girl came. after 6 months of friendship, i proposed her. she also accepted. she knew my habits and all. she gave me a mental support to overcome. but sometimes i did masturbation because of her. after my studies, i came to chennai for a job. here i was a free bird. i did M daily once atleast and i had a drinks habit. after 4 years of love, i planned to have a sex with my girl. she also accepted. but my penis didnt erect well to insert. at that time i realized. after that we didnt have time to do sex. she was far away from me 700 kms away. but daily atleast we had a talk for an hour.

But the real problem arises from her family. yes, she need to accept the proposal from her parents.we tried. but she is gone now. i couldnt make a day without her. so i started M daily twice atleast and a severe drinks habit. my eyes had a black round. very thin hair. weak body. weight gained from 65 to 106. i dont know what are the things happened. now i am married. my wife got a govt job and she told me that she will have some gut feelings. so we can sex after some months.

Now i dont know how much i am affected. i started to take dabur shilajit gold + himalayss confido+ himalays spemen. my plan is to take 3 months.

now i am planned to go gym and do meditation daily. today is my day one. pls pray for me. i wanna get rid of PM

 

Thanks Jerry.

 

Day 2 completed i think so. Yesterday was a night shift. After finishing the work, body gets heat and my mind craving for Porn. Thanks God. I was watching NoFap benefits in YouTube. Love you all.. see u tomorrow

 

Today I had multiple thoughts to start PM again. Somehow I have controlled and I changed my mind. Thank God.

Now I am watching NoFap benefits to control..god pls make me stay strong

 

Yesterday I did masturbation...sorry again started PMO..totally frustrating