male-strapon because ED in relationship-sex

hello!
as i have (PI)ED (i think definitely porn- but also anxiety-induced) and am currently in a relationship with a girl (for about 9 months or so since) and we could never experience penetration-sex because of my ed - I am thinking about buying a male strap-on (with an hole inside the plastic-penis) to start (just as a temporary help) to penetrate my girlfriend because my ED caused a bit problems and frustrations around that topic... although she knows everything about NoFap and my streak and so on.... what would you suggest?

Thank You!

 

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ok, thanks for the advice, i want to slowly get used to do penetration again

 

hey thanks for the advice - it got me into some thinking... i think youre right... i mean we did that often (cuddling etc.) and i was conciously trying to get myself used again to real experiences instead PMO, but there is still often pressure of penetration in my head (and she sometimes asks: "should we try it now" - because she misses it... i mean shes very nice and sensitive, though like worrying when ed happened and that often fucked me up even more)... but i should talk with her too about the topic...

and there this negative picture of myself when ed happens, but i learned for some time now to accept a negative situation in general, not to fight or neglect it and to build on what i have/can - regardless of it beeing "not enough" - and to see that there was a reason in my life which brought me all that trouble - only this will get me the way i want too

i think i am still too impatient generally in life and overwhelm myself with thinking espacially... and im sure that this has definitely been a reason of my ED, because my mind could never relax and was constantly thinking about myself and was not in the currrent moment or in empathy with my girlfriend (though buddhism and meditation helped)... or even while sex i often was in my mind like testing my knowledge, and like feeling bad if i dont know something... my therapist once said: how are you expecting to sleep well or to have sex with that kinds of neurosis and complexes - no wonder!!!

 

day 73 no P
day 17 no PMO