managed to curb my cam girl addiction now im getting lazy

[oldcrafty90]

madd a few posts on this . thanks for the advice and response. i have effectively curb the novelty hadnt tipped in a few weeks, eventually account chat colour went back to basic and kind of grew bored because it is of course all transactional

one thing though i have noticed though is i am noe struggling with motivation to stick with weight loss program. for some reason this cam.shit gave me a new drive which helped focus me to stick with the plan i lost 16kg.

since ive pulled away from cams the novelty beginning to wear off the high stimulis isnt there i have less incentive or immediate need to lose weight other than i just want to

generally if you are attracted to someone or are competing for something sport or a woman you have drive to get im great shape.

strangely the hype around cams did something positive it gave me more determination. now i feel its simply will power and no strong driving force hopefully that wont be an issue

sometimes i kind of wonder should i just do the fan club thing and not tip its like one of the lowest rates of paying,

i know besides the model using me i was also using her she was actually a great source of motivation for about 4 months . now i wonder my motivation is dampening down. i was fasting on and off then cycling 30 miles every day 5/7 made great progress 16kg down but my appetite was increasing more and more and i was essentially eating calories back and hitting a wall i effectively have to fast again then back into training after a refeed to spike metabolism

i love training etc . but weight loss is a long auld journey got another 20-30lbs to lose

going for a 30 day fast after a recovery week from 7 weeks biking training .

obviously i have my own motivations but yhis cam girl had me hooked to the point nonone else really motivates me to want to get in amazing shape. which is funny because shes a cam model lol

makes me wonder by subscribing to the fan club and no more is simply just locking myself into my own idea of motivating myself . the novelty etc will wear off but i think the longer weight loss goes on the more difficult it is to stay motivated. bizarrely i think my previous addiction to the cam model may also wrap it up with my motivation

its also like hey im paying.... a month to hit my goal here so make it happen.

i got issues with motivation and dont want to go backwards on this goal my aim is to get back to the kevel of leaness i was when i was in highschool. im pretty built now but want to get down to above 8% body fat .

the sex industry surprisingly focused my mind on peak physique mentality which by quitting porn and cams kind of dampens that down . silver linings was when i was addicted i was always trying to gain the upper hand somewhere or gain something positive back.
but the urgency to get im shape kind of dies down once your cutting yourself off sexually eho knew hyper sexual stimulus motivates you to get in great shape.

now i need to find a way

 

[.jose19]

I get where you’re coming from. It’s weird how something like that can spark that extra drive for fitness, whether it’s a cam model or some external hype. I had a similar thing where I found myself more motivated to train when a goal was tied to validation. It wasn’t cams for me, but something external I was “working toward,” when it disappeared, it felt like hitting a wall. Weight loss is a grind no matter what, though, so I respect that you’re still staying at it.

As for the cam model thing, many people use things like that as an odd motivator, and it’s not all bad. It sounds like you’re self-aware about the transactional nature, but you also saw the positives it brought you then. It might be worth a shot within limits if it helps you reframe your headspace or maintain focus. Exploring more options like this could be interesting, like the best feet cams, which offer interactive ways to connect without going overboard and might give you a fresh spark.