Mandalorian Challenge 100 Days + [OPEN]

Day 23 checking in.

 

Day 63 checking in.. Last day was really tempting.. and i had a wet dream last night.. very bad.. i felt ashamed of the dreams i had... whatever ,,,, trying to hold on... damned these demons that we have

 

Day 1

Yeah it can be frustrating hey, waking up after one of those dreams, feeling disgusted, wondering what it means about ourselves, asking if we're even making progress.

You know this, yet I'm going to say it anyway.

The dreams are just part of the process. And you are making progress. They are actually a sign that you're making progress - following the wave of initially increasing and then decreasing wet dreams. You've got this

 

Unfortunately I relapsed today mate...couldn't handle the mental struggle at this point ..found it necessary... I will not quit.. will come back...

 

Anyway this streak was further than the last one of 58 days. 54 days, 58 days and now 62 days. I take it as an improvement . Let me start with a one week challenge this time for the first week have chances to fall back..

 

Day 25 checking in.

 

I'm not sure if this advice would help you but if your getting the mental struggle, I'll pray and acknowledge lack of strength to deal with thoughts and ask for help. You never run out lack of strength but strength you do and usually for me it reinvigorate my resolve as well. Hope this helps

 

Unfortunately I relapsed too. Starting again.

I've felt like I'm drifting along, not really going anywhere, just trying to not go backwards (which I have been for the last couple of months at least). I'm looking into what's going on, it's largely a routine thing, and needing to set priorities to keep me from being distracted.

In any case, it felt really good to actually read my Bible at breakfast time today. Of course feelings are fleeting, but I mean it is one of those things that benefits me. So it felt good to be doing a productive thing, something that is a priority, first thing in the morning rather than immediately being distracted by social media, crypto, tv, and other things that my mind often goes to, to try to avoid thinking about my own state and direction.

Yeah I understand man. As you say, it's progress. Life is hard, and 62 days is massive! I look forward to getting there again myself.

What else do you do for fun btw? Are you scheduling fun/relaxing things? (I ask because I'm bad at doing this but it definitely helps me!)

 

Day 1

 

I used to read one book.. roam around with motorcycle, watering plants plus movies

 

Day 28 checking in.

 

Day 3 complete.

Nice Have you got a nice garden going on at your place?

Oh man I miss having a motorcycle. I've been thinking about getting one again for a while. So much fun. It really gets me "in the zone". Clears the head.

 

Day 5

 

its mostly vegetables planted by the house owner.. I water them

 

Day 5: last night was horrible.. I had two wet dreams.. woke up wetting my pants by 3:30 am.. went back to sleep after cleaning up.. was about to woke up by 5am for gym... but a few minutes before that woke up dreadful from a wet dream.. felt bad.. didn't had another fall after a single relapse... this felt really horrible.. I dragged myself to gym this morning... oh God

 

Day 30 checking in. I get my helmet!! This is the way.

 

Day 7.. the demons are chasing me.. damn

 

I'm taking another 30 day challenge.. will be back on Day 37..

 

relapsed.... :-(

 

Day 34 checking in.