Mindmonk(y)
New Fapstronaut
Hi guys,
my story goes the following. I´ve been addicted to pornography for 16 years now and started by the age of 13. For the last 6 years my intention was to break this habit and liberate myself from it. Somewhat I had some success and made it to streaks of 97 days and less. Overall, I think I´ve spent more time sober this year than watching porn, which is great right.
This year my wife has become pregnant and she has been told about my addiction almost since the beginning of our mutual relationship. She has been very supportive, soothing and strict as she could. Also, she has been a huge help in disciplining me to become my best version without the sweet vices. Inherently, I would say we have different sexual energies and my sex drive is kind of high, which has led to some disputs in the past, but nothing we couldn´t resolve. Often rejections triggered relapse due to inadqueate handling of my emotions and energy.
My approach focused on overcoming porn addiction through therapy, porn blockers, sport, meditation and cold showers, books, which I´ve recognized as important tools for personal development in general.
TBH I´m feeling like I´ve reached point where my mindset hasn´t shifted yet to desire the transformation enough being completely free from porn, although I know it is bad for me. Any ideas, on the situation?
my story goes the following. I´ve been addicted to pornography for 16 years now and started by the age of 13. For the last 6 years my intention was to break this habit and liberate myself from it. Somewhat I had some success and made it to streaks of 97 days and less. Overall, I think I´ve spent more time sober this year than watching porn, which is great right.
This year my wife has become pregnant and she has been told about my addiction almost since the beginning of our mutual relationship. She has been very supportive, soothing and strict as she could. Also, she has been a huge help in disciplining me to become my best version without the sweet vices. Inherently, I would say we have different sexual energies and my sex drive is kind of high, which has led to some disputs in the past, but nothing we couldn´t resolve. Often rejections triggered relapse due to inadqueate handling of my emotions and energy.
My approach focused on overcoming porn addiction through therapy, porn blockers, sport, meditation and cold showers, books, which I´ve recognized as important tools for personal development in general.
TBH I´m feeling like I´ve reached point where my mindset hasn´t shifted yet to desire the transformation enough being completely free from porn, although I know it is bad for me. Any ideas, on the situation?
