masturbation has killed me and my social life. it has killed so much of my enthusiasm, creativity, motivation and patience that i am feeling so hard to write this thread. i have been masturbating since i was 12 and now i am 17. during this period there's hardly been a day passed where i haven't masturbated. it has affected me so much that i become isolated from other people so much that i literally have no one in life except my mom, sister and grandma. my dad is a jerk. i lost all my friends and people i have met in school or in other places because i am bad at keeping relationship with anyone and socializing. i am on my break and i dont have anyone to be or talk with. as i am on my break i decided to learn and do something new. i tried to learn python on udemy but it didnt go well and i decided to quit because i find it difficult to write complex algorithms for making tic tac toe game. may be because i didnt practise much and expecting instant result or i lack thinking or maybe i lack motivation to do it. i dont know. after that i decided to write a blog on climate change and other global issues. so i bought a domain(yes i paid). i thought i am gonna be a writer and started dreaming big but things didnt go smoothly. before i tell anything just to let you know that i havent written a single article in my life ( heyy so how did you do your school projects huh ?? ..... well answer is just 3 words google copy paste). when i started writing i realised hmm its not that easy as i thought. i struggled so much just to write the introduction of that article on climate change. it took me almost an hour just to write the introduction. i realised that i lack creativity to become writer. after writing just 2 articles i gave up writing. i am literally not good at anything. i dont have a hobby nor interest in anything. any suggestion please let me know anyway thanks for reading . good day !