Maybe suicide is the best choice.

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Moatasem, Feb 27, 2021.

  1. Yukhpukh987

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    Young'un,don't fret. This is some bad times and believe me this shall pass too. Don't spend time alone. You lack social life and that's all. You need friends. This evil prey those who don't have friend circle.
     
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  2. Bon-Bon XO

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    Thall shall pass
     
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  3. Moatasem

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    I know man, I'm trying man, I wanna kill myself today, it's too painful, I can't explain to you how much pain I am in, it's immeasurable, high school is killing me, but let's just keep trying.
     
  4. Yukhpukh987

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    Don't be that soft young'un. Have some hobby and make some new friends. You will be ok in some days.
     
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  5. Every time you feel suicidal about yourself, you always have to understand that somebody else has it worst than you.

    Im not the one to call on anything here, but I have been through lots of struggles and I felt so many dangerous things with my mental illness no matter what I understood that going through with it is the only thing possible

    My advice would be to see a doctor, and to be honest I realize that most of my struggles was because of PMO

    If you can get through this together with us you will find a way out

    60 Days NO PMO you can private message me for advice
     
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  6. Bon-Bon XO

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    Dude, if you ever need someone to contact directly: (250) 848-4164
    I've had suicidal thoughts, too. Literally, less than 6 months ago, I had an open pair of scissors at my throat. I was so done. But, my girlfriend, and my favorite band (Coldplay) convinced me not to do it. I was crying so much after that, because I realized what a fool I would be to just end it and leave everything behind. Don't let this stupid addiction win.
     
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  7. Bon-Bon XO

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    By my favourite band, I mean, I listened to my favourite song.
     
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  8. Different Built

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    I relapsed today too. Here's the thing. You are 15 years old. I am almost 20, still struggling. Some on here are 45 and still struggling. Which is ok. It's ok to struggle with this. It's great that you're realizing this at a young age. Keep fighting man
     
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  9. Anti-Hero

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    Shut the fuck up! Stop saying nonsense. Listen to this:
     
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  10. WalkingForward

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    @Moatasem your opening post brought tears to my eyes. Please don't harm yourself, you can call or chat anonymously with a suicide hotline.

    The fact that you're only 15 and at least want to improve yourself, that is huge.

    When I was 15-16, I was fapping a lot, I was stealing things, breaking into vacation houses to steal alcohol, I was not doing well in school. And worst of all, I had no motivation to improve myself, I had a weird delusion of being like a cool gangsta... (this was 2006-2007).

    You're on a good path, most of us make mistakes and have setbacks, but having the motivation and ambition to want to improve, that is a huge first step that should not be underrated.
     
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  11. Moatasem

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    Yeah, I'm studying overnight and binge studying everyday and fapping more, but once I finish my sophomore year in high school and these monotonous nights, I'm going to a sports club next month because my parents want me to go here, and I'm happy about that, also I'm going to do a wide range of activities when I finish, I'm never going to continue being unhealthy and pervy for the rest of my life, thanks :).
     
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  12. Moatasem

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    I'm going to keep smiting the dragon of chaos no matter what plights I encounter my comrade!
     
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  13. Moatasem

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    I also feel suicidal these days because my parents shout at me, but I know I won't do it, I learned that no human being wants to fundamentally die, even most of the golden gate bridge suicide survivors claimed that the moment they jumped off the bridge, they regretted it soooo badly, they were extremely regretful because they thought their life would end and they would never return to life again.
     
  14. Moatasem

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    I'm going to, thanks man.
     
  15. WalkingForward

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    I think this means that your parents love you, they have high standards and expectations for you. Maybe they could be more strategic, but it would actually be worse if they had been indifferent about you struggling with school.
    You could try out meditation, to still have some spirituality, inner peace and focus. I would recommend checking out guided meditations by Diana Winston, either on this link (it's free): https://www.uclahealth.org/marc/mindful-meditations or on Spotify.
     
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  16. Moatasem

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    It doesn't matter man, I'm doing way better at school now and I already found it that I succeeded in two subjects, I have two left to study for! LET'S GO!
     
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  17. Moatasem

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    And I'm going to try out meditations when I finish school and my friend also recommended them, thanks for the guided meditation, I'm going to definitely try it out when I finish school!
     
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    PMO makes us feel useless I believe because were watching another person get the Woman, which in a way messes with our minds in sexual activities, which is why we feel depressed after and useless. We may see a fairly attractive female online that has perfect body and bubbly attitude, but she's greedy and doing it for the money my friend. Most of them are doing it just for pleasure, of course have a good time, but also for the money itself.

    - I actually get depressed and despise allot of the talented females you see doing Youtube, P****, etc. Because apparently good looks can get you somewhere this day in age with good looks to an extent with no hassle, this why I get depressed about society, woman have it more easy, get the guy with out making a speech or countless effort...

    - I've been a guy that's been patiently waiting for the right woman, praying every day for her to show up. Make a spark with me or her to me, but still nothing. Unfortunately I'm always the guy at work that see's couples be cheesy around each other and yes it is annoying after 10 + years of seeing it. Sorry for my fretting but we are all in deep shit my friend. That's the point I'm trying to come across here I guess.


    But first I would try and start to get into hobbies, especially exercise and find workouts on youtube.

    Play a massive multiplayer online game. Find a group or guild of people who come weekly and spend time with them. When I was 15 I spent most of my days playing SilkRoad or a game called Perfect World. Yes it did help venture my mind off the addiction and I recommend it to you. I didn't meet much people but I explored a whole new world and had a good experience. Maybe you'll find some gal online. ;)

    As far as I know my relationship with god is a rough one right now, but I'm still keeping my faith and pride. Keep praying and over time you'll be given answers, asks for angels to watch over you or help. You may be surprised. If you want me to give you a legit prayer I've said in a PM I will.. Because it happened the next day for me and I was blown away.
     
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  19. Different Built

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    Aye listen to David Goggins and watch the Pursuit of Happyness. Both incredible stories about people who never quit. These people ended up being wildly successful and it's because they were willing to push through discomfort. Let's push through together and overcome this shit because it takes a true winner to beat PMO addiction.
     
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  20. Different Built

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    Watch Rocky too. David Goggins and Rocky took my best streak length from 35 to 116 days in just 3 tries!
     
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