maybe there is a thing called curse

hi, to all. Iwish i was at a better mental state , but unfortunately i'm not. I am 38 years old , yet i am the unlucky one that looks like i am in my early 20ies. And i say this because women , in general prefer the looks of a strong , offcourse tall man . i'm simply not one of them. As i was growing up i kept heasring comfort words like '' don't worry man'', when you'r older this will centainly become your advantage. Well they were wrong. I still keep hearing the same comfort words as if i was 15,18,25 ,30 years old. And things haven't changed. As by general consensus , by women co-workers, i'm consedered rather good looking. I keep hearing complements by other women that i have what some people say ''the whole package''. Yet no woman is interested , to get to know me and go on a date with me. There's always a rejection without a second thought or voice statter. women don't want even to know me before they reject me. And here i am , 38 and alone.
I had 2 or 3 chances but they all turned out to be rather on the friendship side of things, because they like me as a person, not romanticly. A woman just recently called me out of the blue, and asked me out, only to tell me that she terminated things with her last boyfriend, that she was available, naturally i grew hopes that she might thought of me as a mate, but as it turned out , she only wanted company on a friendly level.
And i didn't have interactions with that woman before. She called me, one that she didn't know anything about, on a friendly level. I saw recently that a man died alone 4 years ago, in germany and found today his skeleton onto his bed. Noone looked for him. Iam starting so feel terrified , that my fate may be just be like that.
idon't know what to do. Iam a polite person, never wanted to harm anyone physically and emotionally, i have a job that thank god can support me and more, my own house, car and yet i have to suffer through this every day. I know that women in my country are not consedered nice, or for they down to earth personalities, but frankly ...this is just torture. Thanks for reading this. I just wanted to get this out of my chest.

 

hello again. Talking to women has never been a problem for me, it's that for some reason , i feel they find me obnoxious. I'm extrovert, polite, smily, but none seems interested. I can jump start a conversation easily , if i find a common ground, just the other day, i went to the video store, there was a girl and i started a conversation about movies, we ended up laughing our a...es off. but when i returned the movie the next day, she was extremely cold and pretended she didn't know me. Just a little example.