Maybe this site can help

Ok I feel weird!
But I guess that is to be expected. I found this site in searching for answers about the aftereffects of being PMO free for 5 months now. I had no clue this site existed and it probably could of helped me a lot back when I said enough is enough. Well I am here now and I guess I am looking for answers or advise from the ladies here. I have gone through some of the threads and a good majority of ladies have heighten senses south of the boarder since they have stopped PMO. But are there any ladies out there who's libido just dropped of the radar? Like where is Waldo type gone? The main reason I stopped PMO is because my body and mind had become a slave and outside that realm in a relationship my ladybits refused to work naturally. Internal O's VERY rarely happened and O's in general took and EXTREMELY long time to achieve if any. Now I am even more frustrated because I'm not sure if my bits are beyond repair, if being 39 has anything to do with it and perimenapause is creeping up on me (God I hope not yet). I am engaged and my fiancé and I are waiting for marriage. We use to have intimacy and we both had porn addictions. But we decided to stop because we want to wait so it can be "fresh and new" when we do have sex. Now I am questioning my body, the attraction to my fiancé and was it real or sex based. Grrrrrr I feel like I am rambling on....any advice?