Medical graduate from Mexico, please share your opinion

Oziel

Fapstronaut
Hello people i will try to introduce myself briefly. My mother language is Spanish sorry.
I was PMO addict since 12 yr old especially Masturbation. No luck with girls also.
I am 26 year old and finished medical school 2 yr ago, I didn't know what to do with my life back then i was kinda confused and full of anxieties, watched lots of TV , feared the real World and Job responsibilities. so I took advice from a relative who is a doctor also ,on taking the STEPS exams for. Entering into a medical speciAlty within The United States ,but my main goal was Money, I didn't tough about my specialty selection and what i liked the most :(, an so i did, i took the first exam last year and now i am about to take the second.
last year was hard because i suffered of anxiety and Obsessive disorder, I was visiting a psychologist but I felt that my progress was quiet slow, It was until I found a forum talking about Nofap and the video from TED talk explaining PMO as a source of multiple psychological disorders, I gave it a try, I've been into Nofap for 3months with 2 relapses, my actual streak is 30 days,also practice meditation, cold shower, and exercise and I've seen tons of progress my daily anxiety and obsession is now about 10%of what it used to be, I am more relaxed around women,
about my career I started talking with my professors from the medical specialties I remember I liked, like Pathology and Radiology I plan to take rotations in such specialties and see which i enjoy the most,

and THE MOST IMPORTANT for now and in which I ask for your REPLIES!!!:
i feel kind of CONFUSED because I see from a different perspective my future specialty choice, i feel that i missed a lot of opportunities to discover these specialties during medical school due to social anxiety and wasting of opportunities . And I know this also has to do with brain rewiring and new Dopamine receptor, I see future in a different and objective way.

I KNOW THIS IS MY SECOND CHANCE IN LIFE! !!!

DO YOU THINK IS NORMAL TO FEEL KIND OF CONFUSED NOW THAT I AM TRYING TO FIND MY PURPOSE IN LIFE REGARDING MY SPECIALTY SELECTION? o_O I really want to go back to the hospital to those areas but my professor told me to only keep up with the preparation for my second exam which is in 2 months and then do the rotations. ... I KNOW I WILL FIND MY PURPOSE IN LIFE!!!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR READING, I hope everyone meet your goals in life! !!!:)
 
During nofap, I often found that I experienced feelings of emptiness. This emptiness is a result of a void that is left when you stop PMO. What you are experiencing, where you are confused and second guessing is part of the rebooting process and I would like to congratulate you on that. As for determining your specality and choosing residency, I advise you to do some soul searching. Really find some time to unplug from everything, go out into nature and sit and really think about your future. Think on the positive aspects only, do not focus on the negatives such as I cannot succeed or I don't have enough money. The answer can only be decided by you and you alone.
 
Thank you for spending your precious time.
Reading your answer makes it clear that many of us fight trough this, your perspective of view builds up mine.
Yes every day I am more relaxed and focused , I know that I will reach the answer hopefully soon.
 
During nofap, I often found that I experienced feelings of emptiness. This emptiness is a result of a void that is left when you stop PMO. What you are experiencing, where you are confused and second guessing is part of the rebooting process and I would like to congratulate you on that. As for determining your specality and choosing residency, I advise you to do some soul searching. Really find some time to unplug from everything, go out into nature and sit and really think about your future. Think on the positive aspects only, do not focus on the negatives such as I cannot succeed or I don't have enough money. The answer can only be decided by you and you alone.
Thank you for spending your precious time.
Reading your answer makes it clear that many of us fight trough this, your perspective of view builds up mine.
Yes every day I am more relaxed and focused , I know that I will reach the answer hopefully soon.
 
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