It's almost like a sign from the universe, since I started this process females are initiating conversations with me and I got the capability to be in a relationship. For years I thought I couldn't do this, I had no confidence. But now it's just happening. I don't know if I'm rebooting or what but I'm actually letting myself go with it rather than stopping it due to low self esteem. In the past I wouldn't have even entertained it when a girl would start talking to me, I wouldn't even recognise the cues, and even when I did I'd back away but now I'm embracing it all the way. I see that I'm not letting negative thoughts sway me like I did before. There would usually be thoughts of not being good enough but that's changing. This time today I was really nervous with anxiety but that didn't interfere too much.