Today, on my 6th day of abstinence from PMO, my longest streak in a long time, I relapsed. Twice. I didn't relapse to porn, nor did it last for as long as it usually did (I used to go on for hours and I used to M to fucked up stuff, today it was just a few minutes per session), but nevertheless I did relapse. All because the memories of stuff I used to watch kept lingering in my mind, even the sounds, everything. It went pretty smoothly during the other days but today it was nearly unbearable. I feel weak, defeated. I resisted for a few hours, and while I was struggling with the urges I had some moments of clearness where I knew it just wasn't worth it to throw it all away just for some temporary pleasure. During those moments I knew my addiction was just trying to manipulate me. But eventually those brief moments of clearness were wiped away by the addiction, and here I am now. Was it worth it? No sir. Will I be able to prevent this from happening again? I doubt that, but I would love that. It would be so good if we were able to constantly be in a state of clearness, of knowing that preferring instant gratification over long term benefits isn't worth it. If any of you is able to do that, would you share how you do that? How do you manage to see clearly through the fog of addiction? I can't seem to figure it out.