Mental process of healing from PMO: The war with my penis is over

Clearing my mind what I have been doing in the past 20 years is that I was fighting a war with my penis. Tried to milk the maximum of semen out of my body with the trigger helper of porn.

As if I wanted to make my penis a slave for those faked moments of relief. I even experienced a few orgasms with nothing coming out. This is not the way to love your own body.
It has actually a masochistic tendency IMO.

All those thoughts help me now to love my body instead of abusing it. The mental process is just speaking for myself most important for healing.

Porn is boring
Porn is dumb
Life is waiting for us