Idk guys, I am up now, should be sleeping now but I screwed up again. I'm still screwing up doing the same sh### over and over. I need some kind of help. Idk what to do or if this forum is helping. I'm not on it much. I went out to meet an escort the first one left me hanging. So I found another one online. Ok went their and I wasn't really attracted to her. I didn't really enjoy the sex. I didn't go inside her. Just I don't really think getting into the details of what was done is really relevant is it? But I wasn't attracted to her. And the organism wasn't good either. I was just really determined to get laid I guess but it wasn't any good. Idk if any of you guys ever had sex or something with a woman you didn't find attractive before? Being a guy we are not like a woman but I still came, but it wasn't like pleasurable. Idk how to explain it but here I am. I still seeing escorts. Now last week I did meet an escort and it was pretty fun. But now I mean we don't communicate hardly so it was like all that for this? This can't be worth it. I need to find a girlfriend but I have a lengthy past with escorts and I think I am doomed. About to be turning another year older. Idk what should I do?