1. Welcome to NoFap! We have disabled new forum accounts from being registered for the time being. In the meantime, you can join our weekly accountability groups.
    Dismiss Notice

Mind Playing Tricks On Me! (Start now or next month?!) HELP

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by MasterWayne101, Oct 1, 2017.

  1. MasterWayne101

    MasterWayne101 Fapstronaut

    8
    3
    3
    Ok so this is the first time im posting here, and let me begin by giving a shoutout to everyone for being supportive and helping out others in times of hopelessness. I hope to receive whatever feedback you can provide me with and help me overcome this nasty addiction.

    I've been trying to quit PMO for a while now, but I always end up relapsing :( I wanna stop so bad. Yesterday (Sept 30th), I binged like 10 times and by the 10th time, I thought this is gonna be my last one and i will begin my new PMO-free journey from the beginning of this month (Today/October 1st).

    Here's the messed up part: I was fapping last night and i wanted to finish before the clock hit midnight because thats when Oct 1st starts, but i PMO'd at 12:00/12:02 AM (few minutes into the new month). I know... its fucked. Now i feel like i didnt start off my NoFap journey right or maybe i should just PMO and start next month or next week. Ugh im so conflicted. I JUST WANT THIS ADDICTION TO END but i feel like the timing and "last fap" has to be just right for me to begin.

    Please. I need your help guys! anything..
     
    Forward Path and Flyhigh like this.
  2. Flyhigh

    Flyhigh Fapstronaut

    1,162
    4,304
    143
    It's never too late to start today.
     
  3. anewhope

    anewhope Fapstronaut

    Sounds a bit OCD. The right time to stop PMO is right now. Set the counter here and watch the days clock up. I have just had the boost of reaching tripple figures. I feel twice the man I did before I took that first step. Consign that last FAP to September and make 1st October the first day of the rest of your life.

    ANH
     
    WreckTangle, Jimmy5555, slb and 3 others like this.
  4. MasterWayne101

    MasterWayne101 Fapstronaut

    8
    3
    3
    Thanks man, i needed that! I really want to be PMO-free for life more than anything
     
  5. Ive got this

    Ive got this Fapstronaut

    64
    23
    8
    a) It was still september 30th somewhere in the world.
    b) Who cares what the time or date was... Don't use the date or time as a crutch because that will only result into giving you reasons to relapse. You are going to need all the will power later on, so don't start on a bad note. Instead be happy you have started this journey!
    c) The best time to start is now!
     
    slb, Flyhigh and MasterWayne101 like this.
  6. MasterWayne101

    MasterWayne101 Fapstronaut

    8
    3
    3
    This might be my OCD coming into play and might sound a little weird, but...

    Since I last PMO'd like a minute or two literally right into when Oct 1st began (12:01 am), would i still hit the 90 day mark at the end of the year if i stop PMO from today? or does today not count and it'll be 89 days? Thanks for all the support guys.
     
  7. Ive got this

    Ive got this Fapstronaut

    64
    23
    8
    You will hit 90 days at 12:01.. But if you give in now because of some stupid reason like the time you won't make it at all

    Wouldn't you rather make 90 days at 12:01 than not making 90 days at all...?
     
    Flyhigh likes this.
  8. anewhope

    anewhope Fapstronaut

    Let's worry about that when you've got 89 days under your belt shall we?
     
    WreckTangle likes this.
  9. MasterWayne101

    MasterWayne101 Fapstronaut

    8
    3
    3
    Out of curiosity, did you guys encounter something similar? did you make the initiative to stop PMO mid day or did you have that 'one last fap before I get into it' thought? Did you count the day you started this journey? What were your thoughts before approaching it? Man im overthinking this.. idk sorry?

    To be overly critical with myself, I MO'd till 12:00 am but I still watched P till 12:01/12:02 am..
     
  10. It is like if someone was trying to lose weight and before starting a diet they decide to say "good bye" to fast foods... you have to start now does not matter if you mess up the first two minutes of the month and if you start you have to look ahead do not say good bye to "someone" you hate. Cut it off now! Screw you failure and keep going! Stay strong.
     
    MasterWayne101 likes this.
  11. Jimmy5555

    Jimmy5555 Fapstronaut

    68
    190
    33
    I did similar and wanted to start on 00:00 but was too late by 15 minutes.

    But it doesn't matter. I started and I am in a streak now from that point.
     
  12. Ive got this

    Ive got this Fapstronaut

    64
    23
    8
    Yes you are being over critical about thinking too much.. I will tell how I went about it, but this is me. You need to do whats best for, and works for, you.

    I had one last fap before I started, but it wasn't a good bye fap or one last time thing.. It was because I know myself and I wanted to go into this as strong as possible. I have done this before years ago and I know how hard it gets. I wasn't going to go into this with the temptation from the beginning, I wanted to go into this with zero wants to fap. I also know how shit I was going to feel after that fap so I wanted to use that feeling as a reminder of why I am doing it.

    So when I started this I started with no desire and feeling like shit (which to me is one of my fuels that keep me going in my hard times). That all came from my one last fap but thats also just me.

    This also happened at exactly 10pm and that is the time I set my counter to. I could set it at the beginning of the day but then I would only be lying to myself. I count a full day as 10pm - 10pm

    I hope this helps!
     
    MasterWayne101 likes this.
  13. MasterWayne101

    MasterWayne101 Fapstronaut

    8
    3
    3
    Thank you so much, guys! Your patience and support means a lot. I will overcome this! Goodluck to you all!
     
    Jimmy5555 likes this.
  14. See you are 500+ days in you listened to us and stopped caring about what you're mind said and me and you have a similar problem i just want my "last fap" to be perfect but bro we cant live like that or we are going to keep relapsing and relapsing, After all this is a addiction after all you're body craves it makes you do stupid reasons for you to keep on doing it and you're brain is going to hide that its a addiction but it really is and its our own power that's going to keep us moving and then you're brain will understand what you are doing and everything is going to be FINE.
     

Share This Page