Month 2. Urges at their peak.

Urges are kickin' in even stronger. Summer so far been easy because it was cold and rainy. But now when warmer days starts hormone levels increasing and urges are not that easy to ignore anymore.
On a positive side I have a date in 3 days so something to look forward to(Girl is taking time off her work to come to my town and ride sub boards with me - first date). I think its very important to not relapse before date cause I would feel terrible if I did. Remember with previous girl I felt terrible before last date after relapsing but then realized it was just a dream about jerking off and Im still good. But that bad feeling didnt go away so easy and that was the last time I saw that girl because I sucked like if I had been jerking off before seeing her.