Hey! Yesterday I saw a beautiful movie with friends and it made me want to live and dance. So I went to a dancing venue and danced and spoke to a lot of girls. I noticed I stayed more with myself then normally. Sometimes I got rejected and that really hurts. I have been on nofap for 13 days and I feel that I have more energy, feel more proud about myself, sometimes already look different about girls. Today I feel really 'hot' and have difficulty not going to dating sites or fap. I dont want to relapse. I dont want to be a plant in bed with no energy. But I notice I find it difficult to handle the energy. And then I think I want to go out and talk to girls and take them home. Is that also a kind of relapsing. I don't want to go monk mode but also dont want to relapse. There is a part in me that wants to go for a beautiful encounter with a girl but there is also a part in me that would go for a bit less.