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Mr. Solo Dolo

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by Daggertail19, Sep 29, 2020.

  1. Daggertail19

    Daggertail19 Fapstronaut

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    The mornings are always the loneliest parts of my day. It is now almost October, things have changed so dramatically in the past year. At the beginning of this year, I was in Dubai visiting some family with my Dad and maintained a relationship with a girl I met in college. Being with family felt so good, but when I came back it was time for the semester to start again.

    Me and my girlfriend at the time seemed "so in love", but now that I look back maybe we were both just filling some emptiness inside us. We slept in the same bed very frequently, and woke up together. We would have sex regularly, and after a few months of knowing her my fear of PIED went away. But it is important to note that I could not maintain an erection at first, mainly because of the fear that stemmed from past experiences.

    Now, I am living at my parents house since the COVID outbreak in March. I am trying to use being here as a way to get a grip on my porn and masturbation habits, but the environment in this house is even more depressing and lonely than anything I have ever felt. My grandma has Alzheimer's and Dementia, and it is killing me to see her like this. My Mom takes care of her as the only daughter of my grandma and the amount of stress it puts on my Mom is apparent. My Dad just sits at home, retired, and watches movies all day and talks to family in Lebanon. This environment is not making my situation any better.

    The only 2 people that make me feel better is my brothers, I am the middle child. My younger bro lives here with us and is doing online schooling just like me. My older brother lives like 20 minutes away, we all have a very close relationship and see each other often. I use to have so many friends that I could see, but now I have about 3 solid friends I could hang with. Most of the time, they are all working or busy with their own lives.

    Something is missing, and I do not know what. I miss my ex and being able to confide in another person when I am feeling like this. I miss waking up next to someone. I miss the sex. But there were too many problems in the relationship, and I would not go back to it.

    Anyway, I feel like I am rambling at this point. I needed to let that out. Thanks for reading.
     
  2. keep writing man, you probably feel better already. even if you don't months or years from now you will reread this writing and laugh at yourself or at least smile. sometimes life can suck, but its just how you feel right now. its crazy how fast time can fly if you find something to dive into like a new hobby or adventure. for me it once seemed impossible to get over a girl, actually multiple different girls for at least a month after i stop seeing them and once as much as a year i felt feelings so intense i believed i could never forget them or escape that feeling. now, a couple years later i barely remember of feel anything about them at all. I read my journal from that time and laugh. Now I also see how blessed I am and if I didn't obsess over the few things going wrong in my life I could appreciate all that has gone right!
    Good luck bro
     
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  3. ANewFocus

    ANewFocus Fapstronaut

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    Control what you can control. Focus on caring for yourself. We cannot help others if we don’t care for ourselves first.
     
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  4. matt2k12

    matt2k12 Fapstronaut

    your situation sounds dire,

    however there is a remedy for every situation,

    a higher purpose in life,

    a closer relationship to your creator,

    ambitions, goals, hobbies,

    find out what makes you happy,

    and do that,

    for me it is reading, doing sports, having a good conscience,

    i find that even though i live alone,

    i dont experience the feeling of loneliness very often,

    except when a thought pops up in my mind,

    a memory of my past relationship,

    or an idea of love presented in a movie,

    but i overcome that with reminding myself that i was alone, always,

    naked and alone i was born from the womb of my mother,

    naked and alone i will die and return to my creator,

    that, and an attitude of thankfullness i have grown in my faith,

    remove every thought and emotion of loneliness i might have.

    life is suffering,

    embrace the suffering, and you embrace life.
     
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