Music that describes what you feel right now.....

This pretty much sums up my pain:



Please - Black Peppercorns

Please don't leave
Whisper some peace to me
I weep
Please don't go
Give me some hope today
Have you ever been alone all by yourself
Even when someone else is near you
Sometimes they seem so far away
And nothing can comfort you
No nothing
Dear God make me a bird today
So maybe I could fly away
From all this pain that fathered me
I feel like an old man and I'm still under age
Yeah the rags of my heart are silently bleeding
Like loons crying, the sound is eerie
Like slaves longing to be shaded
The lamp is bright but the metal is faded
I know that sometimes you win
But most of the time I get this feeling that I'm losing
And the cruel, cruel essence of loneliness
I believe this must be my portion in life
If there really is a hereafter and after all
Maybe a moment of grace could bring the gates of heaven near
I wish someone could tell me, have I wept these tears in vain?
But even then there's this loneliness
This loneliness
So please don't leave
Be kind to me
Please
I weep
And please don't leave, believe in me
Please
Feel like I'm swinging to and fro
Like a pendulum or a metronome
If you swing too close to the edge you know
They say that usually you will swing alone
Swing alone, yeah
Dear God make me a leaf today
Because deep inside there's so much pain
So maybe I could float away
While the wind is old and still at play
Put your wisdom and pride down and feel
It's an old cliché be brave and bold
When you step out onto the plank
You've got to forget about how much weight it holds
I know that sometimes you win
But most of the time I get this feeling that I'm losing
And the cruel, cruel lessons of loneliness
I believe this must be my portion in life
Why is it taking me so long to find love
They all wanna know
Have I been completely healed
But the chains are still attached
They lie rusted on the floor
Still enslaved to this loneliness
This loneliness
Is anybody out there at all that understand the pain?
This loneliness gets in your mind
Almost makes you feel insane
Feel insane
Madness
It makes you feel insane
Can hardly think on the inside
Is there anybody, anybody out there at all?
Anybody, anybody?
Yea-ea-ea-ah
Anybody, anybody, anybody.​

 

Feeling...can't quite put the words on it...like it's time to get offline and go workout outdoors, be close to nature, catch an endorphin rush and neurotransmitter boost from a long bike ride, yes that sounds delightful,

 

I like pretty much all of their catalogue ever since Gilmour came into the scene.

It's not that I don't like Pink Floyd with Syd Barret, but I just never listened to them much. I do find Arnold Layne pretty catchy though:


Apparently it's about a dude who liked to steal girls' clothes... I'm guessing he would have needed some NoFap back then hahhhaahh !

 

Hahahahahhahhahah!

 

I am feeling both elegantly lonely, longing for someone as exuberant and lively as I am to come into my life, although I should be nothing but grateful for the 2 amazing AP's I have on this forum, the one partner has a girl in real life, I long for one myself and probably wouldn't be expressing this if I were in a relationship, but alas much work needs to be done before the pursuit begins. My other partner is still on a Zen retreat, oh how my heart longs to be close to someone special on this forum and in my life, these songs express my feelings I just described better than those words do, and underneath the longing is a giddy feeling of sweet contentment heheheh, from making progress and living well,

The longing feeling:


The giddy cheerfulness feeling:

 

Feeling like anything is possible, the horizon is limitless for what we can accomplish, a new day is dawning, a future of excellence and accomplishment awaits,

 

Today I choose to see both roads...

 

Feeling conscious of my lifestyle and the sorry state of affairs in the world...





May all struggling with and suffering from horniness and lust be blessed and find success and happiness.

 

Feeling like I am on a 'live or die' spiritual journey, either triumph or hells bells awaits....beyond epic, this is real life, now or never, eternity's crossing, you only come by this path once in an untold amount of eons of existence..

 

Ready to enter beastmode today, a punishing training session we have scheduled.

Feeling amped up in other words if the music doesn't say enough.

 

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Falkenbach....



Why?

Because I feel like I am on an epic spiritual quest, with nothing less than a destiny to be realized, or a life of shame and regret with a miserable death and remaining mired in this transient world of suffering...



This is now or never time. What path will you choose? Will you fight for righteousness and honour, upholding propriety in the most tempestuous trials? Or will you succumb to the darkness, and relish in the evil silk covered chains of lust and wrongdoing?

 

The music speaks louder (profounder?) than words, so does this image,

 

Like I am rediscovering innonence,

 

i see you reset my man. i also do not mean to nitpick or criticize, but i saw you mention you were taking ashwaganda and tongkat ali? those will make your sex desire go through the roof, they may build a limited amount of strength, as other herbs can increase strength and energy much deeper and holisitcally without acting on the libido in the same way for instance schisandra and he shou wu, but tongkat and ashwa will make it nearly impossible to be successful at nofap unfortunately. heed my words or not, i use to take shilajit and it caused immense nearly uncontrollable sex desire, i had to stop taking it.

if you have a strong libido naturally those herbs should be avoided, at least until one gets a handle on this and pmo is outta the picture.

by the way, this song, in its lyrical entirety, makes me think of your attraction to the darkness,



You've got ashes on the tip of your finger
You've got secrets in the back of your mind
You've been searching for the meaning of evil
'Cause you're attracted to the darkness of life
You've been playing with the words of a liar
And you're tired of the war that you rage
You've been hanging on the edge of the fire
And your pride has got you locked in a cage

You, you got to find the peace of mind that you've been looking' for
You, you got to fight to have the life that you've been searching' for

(You gotta' slay the dragon, You gotta' kill the beast)
(You gotta' slay the dragon, You gotta' kill the beast)

Running' through the night trying' to feel alright and it's time you want to burn
Carry all the weight of your love and hate, will the tables ever turn?
Running' down the road with a heavy load, trying' to leave the world behind
Listen to the voice 'cause you have a choice and it's time to draw the line

When you've reached the end of the road
And you find a hole in your soul
I believe it's time to slay the beast

You're still counting on the change of the seasons
You've been waiting for the passage of time
While your loneliness has taken you hostage
You've been hiding in a circle of lies

You, you got to find the peace of mind that you've been looking' for
You, you got to fight to have the life that you've been searching' for

(You gotta' slay the dragon, You gotta' kill the beast)
(You gotta' slay the dragon, You gotta' kill the beast)

Running' through the night trying' to feel alright and this time you want to burn
Carry all the weight of your love and hate, will the tables ever turn?
Running' down the road with a heavy load, trying' to leave the world behind
Listen to the voice 'cause you have a choice and it's time to draw the line

When you've reached the end of the road
And you find a hole in your soul
I believe it's time to slay the beast

You've got ashes on the tips of your fingers
You've got secrets in the back of your mind
You've been searching for the meaning of evil
'Cause you're attracted to the darkness of life
You've been playing with the words of a liar
And you're tired of the war that you rage
You've been hanging on the edge of desire
And your pride has got you locked in a cage

You gotta' slay the dragon
You gotta' kill the beast
You gotta' slay the dragon
You gotta' kill the beast