This pretty much sums up my pain: Please - Black Peppercorns Please don't leave Whisper some peace to me I weep Please don't go Give me some hope today Have you ever been alone all by yourself Even when someone else is near you Sometimes they seem so far away And nothing can comfort you No nothing Dear God make me a bird today So maybe I could fly away From all this pain that fathered me I feel like an old man and I'm still under age Yeah the rags of my heart are silently bleeding Like loons crying, the sound is eerie Like slaves longing to be shaded The lamp is bright but the metal is faded I know that sometimes you win But most of the time I get this feeling that I'm losing And the cruel, cruel essence of loneliness I believe this must be my portion in life If there really is a hereafter and after all Maybe a moment of grace could bring the gates of heaven near I wish someone could tell me, have I wept these tears in vain? But even then there's this loneliness This loneliness So please don't leave Be kind to me Please I weep And please don't leave, believe in me Please Feel like I'm swinging to and fro Like a pendulum or a metronome If you swing too close to the edge you know They say that usually you will swing alone Swing alone, yeah Dear God make me a leaf today Because deep inside there's so much pain So maybe I could float away While the wind is old and still at play Put your wisdom and pride down and feel It's an old cliché be brave and bold When you step out onto the plank You've got to forget about how much weight it holds I know that sometimes you win But most of the time I get this feeling that I'm losing And the cruel, cruel lessons of loneliness I believe this must be my portion in life Why is it taking me so long to find love They all wanna know Have I been completely healed But the chains are still attached They lie rusted on the floor Still enslaved to this loneliness This loneliness Is anybody out there at all that understand the pain? This loneliness gets in your mind Almost makes you feel insane Feel insane Madness It makes you feel insane Can hardly think on the inside Is there anybody, anybody out there at all? Anybody, anybody? Yea-ea-ea-ah Anybody, anybody, anybody.