My 60 day success story

Ive just equalled my all time higest streak of 50 days. Will write a proper post when I reach 60. Stay strong guys!!! U can do it

 

Day 60

60days!!!! Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I'd reach this day, but here I am. I'm definitely more confident, relaxed with a more positive perception of life and less anxious about everything. Ive started meditating wHich has helped me big time in boosting my self esteem. When ur a chronic fapper and porn addict for a good 8 years Ur self esteem takes a beating. A big one at that. Slowly but surely that's changing. Ive read a few posts about why we need to do so much when there are soo many guys out there who fap and still seem so confident and cool. Well guys all I can is, this is what we've been served. Stop complaining and start building your life. If it takes more effort for us fapstronaughts to attain happiness on Daily basis - so be it. I'm not gonna complain about that. After day30 I talked about how I realised my entire perception was about sex and everytime I looked at a girl all I thought was how she'd be in bed. I'd developed shame because of that and I always felt shame and guilt when I looked at woman because these were the thoughts that usually Sprung in my head. Even if it was my mom's friend. That's how fucked up I was. On day 60 I can confidently say that's not how I think anymore. I look at women not as sex objects but as people with feeling. Oh and btw this has a flip side to it too. Earlier on, the hotter the woman, the more ashamed I'd feel because then my thoughts would only be about sex. Id be soo damn anxious and self conscious around them as if the unspoken rule around hot women is to get them in the sack.Now I see them as individuals who have a weird side to them like everybody else, girls that have feelings and emotions and arnt just trying to have sex with every guy they see (relate to porn videos). So in roundabout kinda way they've actually become more approachable in my head and I seem more alpha male-ish in front of them. Cheers to nofap on that. Other than that I've been continuously discovering my self. I'm slowly moving away from the traits of a sex and porn addict I guess. Ive started noticing the different emotions people have and am becoming more aware of how what I say affects the other person. Earlier since my entire outlook was to get in a girls pants I wasn't really aware of what I was saying and more often than not I'd say rude stuff without realising it!!! I'm slowly starting. To change that. Oh and when ur entire outlook becomes about sex, it's hard to see when someone cares about u or is making fun of u. That has started to change and given the increased aggression levels I'm able to draw boundaries and say buddy - not cool,back off. Basically I've stopped being the nice guy. So I guess the aim is to reach another 30 dayswhich I'm going to get started on immediately. There's sooo many changes going on in my life that I don't remember half of them. When they do crop up in my hyper brain I'll be sure to fill you all in. Until then stay strong guys!!!. This journey is totally worth it!