Hello everyone, My journey to quit porn and reclaim my life begins on 5/7/19. I began to use porn almost 7 years ago as a result of developing depression in my teenage years. I’ve used it almost everyday since I started, and for years it became my primary coping mechanism for whatever life threw at me. Had a bad day? Porn was there me. Depressed? Porn made me feel better. Girlfriend not in the mood? Porn was there to get me off. Just bored? Porn gave me something to do. It became an escape for me. It completely destroyed my view of what a healthy sexual relationship looks like with not just myself but more importantly with any girl I was dating. I went through relationship after relationship carrying my undiagnosed porn addiction with me, and it continued to fuel this need to make sex the most important aspect of a relationship even if it was unintentional. After yet another failed relationship, I finally realized that something needed to change. My unhealthy addiction to porn and masturbation. Enough was enough. It was time to make a permanent change. It’s been almost two months since I had this realization, and I absolutely have tried my best to overcome my PMO addiction during this time. I managed to withstand at most 8-10 days at a time, but eventually it became too much for me. I usually PMOed once a week since the start of this, until recently. I began to experience a hard relapse this past week as a result of an ongoing battle of depression. Even though PMO does not make me feel the same way that it used to, my sexual sensitivity is back to”normal”. But I’m still using it as a coping mechanism, and defaulting back to it to mitigate these overwhelming emotions in me. The core issue remains. But as a result of this, I do realize now that it is not just necessary to have a full reboot but it is crucial for my continual recovery. The change has begun, but the recovery begins now. I’m glad to have found a community that can be a place for not just support but a source of valuable information to help me as I begin my recovery. I look forward to blogging my progress with everyone here, and continuing on my journey to self-recovery and freedom from this addiction.