My Addiction Has Ruined My Life!

Hello everyone. I am 19 years old. I am addicted to porno at the of 14. High school life was tough. I did not realize that my addiction played a huge part of my life with anxiety, depression, anger and also the lack of confidence. In high school, I was the guy that was made fun of and still am because I am really skinny. I made it through high school with struggles and a lot of embarrassments. Now that I am growing into a young man, now that I am having the time to take responsibilities on myself, now that I am realizing my mistakes, I finally figured out what has stopped me from improving myself into a better version. My addiction has damaged many things in my life. I realize now that my addiction needs to stop. Not only this addiction made me have anxiety, depression, anger, not confidence but it made me break relationships with friends and family. I have anger issues and It has damaged my life. My anxiety makes me weak and feel nervousness on accomplishing things in my life I dreamed of. My relationships with my family has fallen apart which made me get into depression. Finally, I do not have confident on myself by the way I look to the way I behave. I want to end this once and for all and start this new journey.

 

Thanks kakuna for the advice, I will stay strong on this big journey.

 

I am trying to distract myself into things that I love doing such as music and playing soccer. But, there is a time where I feel very eager about doing P and M. It's been a day I lasted without doing P and M. Today I almost could have done it but I knew I would regret it so I kept myself busy. The temptation is everywhere and everything I see. The social media, tv shows, random pictures of girls, this whole thing are trying to tempt me into doing P and M. But I am really happy I survived a day, which for me is a huge accomplishment. I will continue to do so, I will try to fight this now and in the future with obstacles that may arise. Now, for the question that you've asked D.J, What are my current strategies for fighting this? HOPE, thinking myself achieving my goals becoming a better person. The prize is waiting for me and I will not give up. I have watched many youtube videos of people that are successful on using nofap. The people have shared benefits. It made me want that.