thegooderfight
Fapstronaut
TL;DR - I've been watching porn since about 8 years old. Around the same time I was touched for the first time by someone that lived in my household at the time. I've been kind of obsessed with sex basically since then. I'm fighting my battle with fresh eyes and a plan SPECIFICALLY for me. Make sure you do what works for you! Every one is unique and our brains all work differently. If you read this whole thing bless you lol we're in this thing together.
I am surrounded by negative energies of many kinds. I learned porn as an escape so early on that it far preceded sex. Well except for the fact that I was used for a while by an older girl when I was in elementary school. (I was in 3rd maybe 4th grade... she was repeating 8th)
This around the time I remember discovering porn. If i'm being honest i've been chemically hard wired to use porn. It's going to take me YEARS to completely ween myself off of it.
I'm at the point in my NoFap journey where I have failed so many times that i've just began unlinking the two neural pathways.
I've sworn off of masturbation and (and orgasm caused by masturbation) and not for a time limit. I'm done with the habit, completely and utterly. It's not like it's hard to shake, I literally feel the moment every time when I make the decision to relapse. It's just so seemless because of the familiarity of it all. No more.
I'm just typing all of this out at the moment because it gives me something to do with all this kinetic energy. My official start date is new years but realistically i haven't relapsed since somewhere within the 28-30th. I'm not concerned with the exact date. I just swore to myself this year would be different. Streaks and badges be damned! They are nice little stimulus and motivation but the REAL motivation to change is within us. You have to want to change so bad that you're tired of yourself! Believe it. No matter how weird the journey gets hang in there and make it through!
I am surrounded by negative energies of many kinds. I learned porn as an escape so early on that it far preceded sex. Well except for the fact that I was used for a while by an older girl when I was in elementary school. (I was in 3rd maybe 4th grade... she was repeating 8th)
This around the time I remember discovering porn. If i'm being honest i've been chemically hard wired to use porn. It's going to take me YEARS to completely ween myself off of it.
I'm at the point in my NoFap journey where I have failed so many times that i've just began unlinking the two neural pathways.
I've sworn off of masturbation and (and orgasm caused by masturbation) and not for a time limit. I'm done with the habit, completely and utterly. It's not like it's hard to shake, I literally feel the moment every time when I make the decision to relapse. It's just so seemless because of the familiarity of it all. No more.
I'm just typing all of this out at the moment because it gives me something to do with all this kinetic energy. My official start date is new years but realistically i haven't relapsed since somewhere within the 28-30th. I'm not concerned with the exact date. I just swore to myself this year would be different. Streaks and badges be damned! They are nice little stimulus and motivation but the REAL motivation to change is within us. You have to want to change so bad that you're tired of yourself! Believe it. No matter how weird the journey gets hang in there and make it through!
