My battle

Hi everyone. I'm 19 and it's been about 6 days since I quit PMO. To be honest, this is not the first time I've tried to do this. The history of masturbation goes back several years prior to my conscious attempts to get rid of it. Interestingly, I've been involved in these affairs since 12 or 11 years old. But I had no idea what I was doing and I wasn't like actually doing it(complicated stuff). I don't even remember when I started consciously doing it but I think from 13 or 14. Anyway, I don't remember being totally addicted to it at that time, it was balanced I guess. Although the last 3 years were pretty tough, though I was not aware of the forthcoming consequences. This year, I tried to give up this addictive, catastrophic habit 3 or 4 times. However, my ambitions were too ambiguous, I didn't know why I was doing it. My mind has even come up with a bunch of reasons why I should hold onto masturbating, ignoring the facts and most importantly, the reality that I finally was able to comprehend. Unfortunately, I've never had any interaction with girls and thought that it's because I was shy and frustrated by the mere thought of doing any such a thing. Personally, I believe that I'm not a true introvert because I love a company, especially being its soul. I'm more of an ambivert(possessing qualities of both extrovert and introvert). Anyways, the fact of me being alone and feeling like a loser wasn't helping my well-being or advancement in my personal life or overcoming addiction. This only thought, alongside others, made me blind. I've come to realize that I was probably using wrong motivators/objections for this goal. Speaking frankly, whenever I see a beautiful girl, I feel both aroused and intimidated. I feel like I'll never be able to have such a girl in my life and feel so broken. I don't think I'm ugly outside or inside but I know one thing - I'm completely fed up with all of this. We(men) are constantly being manipulated by all this technology - social nets, ads, films, everything. Almost all companies use nude women to promote their products(e.g cars) or anything. Not mentioning that about 30% of traffic on the internet is pornography. It feels like this whole system "forces", encourages or creates this addiction inside the hearts of men Dramatic but true. The worst thing is that it's perceived by our brains as an actual sexual experience. Moreover, we all inherit sexual urge that was awakened by modern technology and industries, interested in having "sexual slaves" that can be easily manipulated. All in all, I want to get this over with and I'm looking for someone who would muddle through this with me.
P.S I respect your privacy and confidentiality. We can go through this anonymously, with one aim in mind - overcome addiction and break free.