I have installed a porn filter on both my PC and smartphone I haven't seen porn at all for weeks but I am really starting to miss (also because im lonely and frustrated for having no girlfriend) it and even ugly girls are starting to look really good to me! Help what's wrong with me? I can't trust my own judgement anymore! In a worst case scenario i can even imagine myself sleeping with a really awfull looking chick and after I got my fill just wanna dump her! Yeah I have become sickening and it worries me.
You are getting more normal, the girls you described as ugly may likely just to be more common girls as opposed to the super models girls you are used to in the porn videos. Sounds like your taste in women are going back to its natural default state.
You're okay man. If you're feeling frustrated, hit the track or some weights, exhaust yourself. You'll feel better. Also if you're attracted to a chick that's less than a 10 why is that a bad thing? If you're attracted to someone, just go with it, if you're not, then don't. You're 20 days in, don't break that for a brief and unrewarding time that will only fill you with fury. Keep talking to the brothers here man.
