We are going through a rough time. We don’t live together right now and there is some drama keeping me from wanting to be intimate with her in any way. I miss her a lot but also, hate the stuff that’s between us, so needing some counseling before I’m comfortable with it tbh. Sounds like the massage was the problem for you? that sort of sexual stuff will definitely effect SA. Oh also, it definitely sounds like you attend 12 step meetings, correct?