My day 25 considerations

Since I didn't have enough space to express myself on my status page, I dediced to share with you in a new thread.
In these days I feel like my life is changing step by step. Women, in the case they're not too fat, too ugly or old, look very attractive to me. That's why every outdoor activities and commitments outside my home have become risky for me: it happens to have urges while jogging, shopping in the supermarket, swimming in a public swimming pool, training outdoors, watching tv or videos on Youtube, walking down the street, driving my car or even praying in the church and during a mass. Anyway I can't renounce to my normal life because of urges, so I get happy of it and I go on with my path. I feel like a teenager from this point of view . Things are more stimulating now just because of it .
My favorite music now is more calm than the genres that I used to listen to.
Even though my sexual fantasies and fetishes are the same as before, they have become less vulgar, less hardcore and most of all less dominant in my mind.
Feels like my romantic mood and my genuine sight of the world have come back after a long time, and I feel like I need to love someone. I feel the desire to give all my heart to a special person, the one who will become part of me.
What do you think about it? Did you experience something like that? How did you feel like?