My experience so far

Hello to everyone, I am 16 years old and I have been doing NoFap since May 17th completely avoiding porn and masturbation. I decided to start the rebooting when I realized that my addiction to edging was the main cause of the depressive state I was in.

The trigger to start the challenge was when I discovered femdom porn and became obsessed with it, since then I cannot imagine myself being with a girl in a normal relationship or being turned on without her dominating me. To be honest I found that completely disgusting and embarrassing. That’s something I just cannot accept.

The first few days were tough because my brain wouldn’t stop asking me to edge (It was asking for dopamine), I was successful in blocking myself from porn completely although sometimes I would accidentally come across some hot ads or sexy Instagram posts every now and then but I was able to control myself and just move on.

After the 6th day the dopamine necessity started to slowly disappear but another issue raised, now my balls were full, I just couldn’t stop feeling horny all day and I had sexual dreams for three days in a row but didn’t cum in any of those. I was still able to control myself and avoid masturbation during those days. That was till today, I relapsed in the most controlled way as possible, I masturbated for 10 seconds while thinking about a classmate but I wasn’t even near cumming, I was completely able to control myself and move on with my day, I just did it to calm my horniness and as a self-control exercise. I think that it was a relapse but I would like to know what you guys think about it and if it is better to just cum.

I do not feel frustrated as it was my first time and not watching porn or masturbating for 9 days has been rewarding in a way I just cannot express in words.

I am looking forward for the thoughts of the NoFap community on my experience so far. I would really appreciate if you guys can give me any advice on abandoning femdom fetish and fantasizing in general. Please bear in mind that English is not my first language and sorry for any mistake or misspelling.

Regards to all the NoFap community.
Desaix