Warrior4Freedom
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To start off, this won't be a hugely exciting thread, but rather low-key. There's a million covert, implicit and subtle exchanges we as men make every day with females around us, and I thought I would document them here. Perhaps it will make a good anthropological study, where we are all the researchers and writers of some thesis-to-come. This isn't a thread about approaching women, or dating them, or tips or whatever, though perhaps it can include that. This is just to document stuff I go through interacting with women on the daily, whether it be coworkers, strangers, friends, etc. I'm over 5 months PMO-free, if that helps. I only mention that because it has brought some sort of self-awareness and attention from women; the latter not necessarily being attraction, but just attention (usually in the form of not knowing what to make of me).
I guess I'll start off with a co-worker who grew to have a very obvious liking (romantic) for me. First impressions matter, and my first impression of her (and on subsequent interactions) was that she was bossy, entitled, adversarial. She wasn't attracted to me that earlier on; I guess that attraction came because I was able to have engaging conversations with her (due to SR clarity of mind) and a propensity not to cater to her aforementioned nonsense. Girls like her utterly wrecked my heart before, and I guess it's good that I was prepared for this one. Nevertheless, I never really came to like her in that way, since she reminded me of those previous girls, and her entitled and hypocritical ways, as well as her total assurance of those, did not appeal to me. She also showed little interest in my life and pursuits; it was more she liked that I could talk about the things she liked and wanted to talk about. In the PMO-ing past I might have been, "well she's good enough", and she might have likely eaten me alive.
The second is with another coworker who recently left the job, who may suspect I am interested in her. She's significantly younger than I am (over 10 years), but we always got along well; we had conversations that were fun and light. Given her age (mid-20's), I'm not being pushy and am giving her lots of space. She has not responded to a most recent message, but she has not blocked me either. I'm aware that girls her age are incredibly flaky and flighty, and am fully prepared for something like that from her, but we'll see. I like her energy. She has not shown interest in me beyond anything physical really, and I suspect she has daddy issues. I don't think I appeal to her psychologically or emotionally, which is where the meaningful aspect of connection is for a woman.
That's all for now. I'm also writing this because it's the night of a long weekend, I'm on > 5 months being PMO free, and I've had bouts of sexual frustration that I'm trying to quell.
Comments welcome. I'll keep adding to the thread nevertheless.
I guess I'll start off with a co-worker who grew to have a very obvious liking (romantic) for me. First impressions matter, and my first impression of her (and on subsequent interactions) was that she was bossy, entitled, adversarial. She wasn't attracted to me that earlier on; I guess that attraction came because I was able to have engaging conversations with her (due to SR clarity of mind) and a propensity not to cater to her aforementioned nonsense. Girls like her utterly wrecked my heart before, and I guess it's good that I was prepared for this one. Nevertheless, I never really came to like her in that way, since she reminded me of those previous girls, and her entitled and hypocritical ways, as well as her total assurance of those, did not appeal to me. She also showed little interest in my life and pursuits; it was more she liked that I could talk about the things she liked and wanted to talk about. In the PMO-ing past I might have been, "well she's good enough", and she might have likely eaten me alive.
The second is with another coworker who recently left the job, who may suspect I am interested in her. She's significantly younger than I am (over 10 years), but we always got along well; we had conversations that were fun and light. Given her age (mid-20's), I'm not being pushy and am giving her lots of space. She has not responded to a most recent message, but she has not blocked me either. I'm aware that girls her age are incredibly flaky and flighty, and am fully prepared for something like that from her, but we'll see. I like her energy. She has not shown interest in me beyond anything physical really, and I suspect she has daddy issues. I don't think I appeal to her psychologically or emotionally, which is where the meaningful aspect of connection is for a woman.
That's all for now. I'm also writing this because it's the night of a long weekend, I'm on > 5 months being PMO free, and I've had bouts of sexual frustration that I'm trying to quell.
Comments welcome. I'll keep adding to the thread nevertheless.
