Hi guys, I have became aware of this forum 4 years ago when I discovered the root cause of my Erectile Dysfunction which is....surprise Porn. Today I decided to create a forum account and share my personal secreted story, because I have been fighting my PIED with wrong methods and this can no longer continue and I need (your) help. [--[ prologue]--] I'm a 38 year old guy that came into contact with porn at a very young age, around 8 years. At that time it started very innocent with magazines,playboys and porn strips. It escalated when I (age14) got a VHS+television unit in my room and started watching porn with the corresponding masturbation acts. My sole concern at that time was not to get caught by my parents, but I recall getting busted by my parents with their rental tape at least two times. My mom was furious, but my dad chuckled because he was a bigger wanker than I was. Anyway, things got very very problematic when I reached 17 years old and Internet porn was becoming a real thing. Why waste time with acquiring porn tapes when you can download from the biggest database available and secretly store all those goodies on drives and cd-roms? Well, I'm not going to lie, I had a blast of a time exploring my sexuality at that time which I barely scratched the surface of. [--[ real sex ]--] Then Real sex happened around 18 years old and it was the best thing ever. Often I fantasized how a vagina would feel from the inside and how it would taste. In the beginning I did not have any issues getting hard and staying hard. The first thing I was struck with PIED was when I visited a good looking prostitute and could not get hard. I felt so ashamed of my dead dick, but I attributed this failure to use of weed and stress. [--[ method 1 : prostitutes ]--] At that time I thought I could cure my limp dick by just training myself to get relaxed. Because I did not want this to happen when I was with a nice potential girlfriend. At that time I had absolutely nobody to talk about this problem due to shame, so I had to fix it by myself. In the meanwhile I decided to train by using prostitutes and meditation. I was an average good looking guy, that would not need a prostitute for sex, but I felt that this anonymous training could not do any real harm and the excitement i felt in my body prior to having forbidden sex with hookers was worth everything. This continued for years with various results, but at 80% of the time my dick would fail and I would resort to manual to finish the job. During this exciting prostitute phase I discovered that I was mostly at ease with slightly older women(40+) that would offer a Girlfriend Experience. Some young(20) model looking prostitutes got angry, so I did not prefer them until I was fixed. [--[ Method 2: V1agra ]--] Around 23 years old I started dating older woman (30+) and guess what? My PIED was at its worst. I panicked and chucked my life work gigantic porn stash in the trash outside. Gigabits of CDR's and DVD's all gone in a moment of fear, like tears in the rain. I really felt useless and ran out of ideas and got desperate and decided to visit a doctor that subscribed me V1agra. Holy crap, that worked instantly and my dick was hard as rock and I could perform till deep in the night. All my problems were solved, well so i thought..... My main problem was that I never could tell my girlfriend that I had to use V to get it up with her, because she would have definitely dumped my dead dick right there, and I would not blame her. So what could I do than to keeping silently using V? The other problem was that V (due to subscription) was very expensive and it only works when you take it 20 minutes prior to having sex. This secret planing and lying put a lot of stress on my relationship with this nice older woman and in the end I guess she suspected my V usage. Obviously there are also many health disadvantages of using V. [--[ Married : PIED dormant ]--] Then the best thing ever happened to me, because I met the girl of my dreams not long after the breakup with the older girlfriend. Still a PIED patient, I also continued using V with my dream girl, but somehow I managed to lower the usage until my PIED went dormant. At that moment, my Porn usage heavily declined and I was so relaxed with my new girlfriend I never felt the PIED stress. Not long after I married this fantastic woman and started a family with her. Life and sex was good to us, but then. [--[ PIED resurrected ]--] Every married man here knows that the sex life will suffer when having kids and so did our lives. As a man I knew I had to lower my expectations for a while. But due to her hormone problems, destroyed vagina, crying babies, saggy tits, work, etc. My wife's libido diminished to almost 0 and we end up not having sex for almost two years. I was uncertain what to expect at that time and resorted to heavy porn usage to keep my sexual urges in check and this eventually escalated to me cheating on my wife by going to a prostitute. After the first visit I felt shocked and was disgusted by my act of adultery. But my loathing wasn't enough to stop my pathetic transgressions, so I continued throughout the years and my dark friend PIED was always there with me at every prostitute visit. [--[nofap easymode ]--] Meanwhile I discovered the root cause of my PIED and stopped using porn sites and restrained my sexual habits only to masturbation, (the very occasional) real sex and pictures of naked women. This soft method brought me some decent results and wasn't that difficult to maintain. But, in the end it was not a stable method for me because it only took one good fight with my wife to send me on a porn binge that lasted for days. Oh man, how depleted and depressed I was after each binge. Suffice it to say, this method was not the right path. I also noticed my fetishes to sporadically shift from hetero to transwoman sex, rape sex and other genres. Self loathing after a fap was normal for me, but these genres brought me to the next level. [--[ Day 1/90]--] Now its 2019 and I'm almost 40 years old with a PIED dick and my sex life with my wife is 0. It's not the best situation to initiate a reboot by going for a hard method, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes. After reading many fantastic topics I decided to go for the 90 day hard method because nothing else will suffice for me. From experience I know that not watching any porn is doable for me, however I suspect some trouble not being able to release the pressure by masturbating. The longest I have ever managed was about two weeks, so I'm very curious to see how the next 89 days will progress. As a newbie I will be prone to failure, but all my recent faps have brought me zero fulfillment, so I wont miss anything fantastic. Of course curing PIED will require me to make some other lifestyle changes as well, like eating healthy, sports and getting 8 hours of sleep. My biggest masturbation triggers are boredom, stress and depression. It will be key for me to keep these triggers far away as possible. In all honesty I do not expect to be 100% PIED cured in merely 90 days, but I really think this method will give me some important insights and mental benefits that will thrive me to continue far beyond the initial 90 days. I will proceed this lifestyle project and will do a lot of reading and sharing with you. It's strange, but just writing this confession of my darkest secrets makes me feel significantly better. Thanks for reading.