I'm a junior in high school and I've been wanting to join the wrestling team. However, this dream is giving me a lot of anxiety. I'm very scared to tell my family because of the fact that they may judge/say no. My schedule is also very busy, I have work at the grocery store and piano lessons. I would have to leave my job for a few months which seems scary to me, even though they say they are flexible with people leaving for a few months and can have their position open to come back later. I also feel very socially awkward/unconfident. I want to wrestle because I want to improve my confidence and have something I can work hard at physically. Also, if I make the jump and do it then I will tell myself that fear won't ever get in the way. My heart races every night when I think about whether or not to do the sport. Last night I couldn't fall asleep until 2 am. I'm just really scared, like really scared but also I really wanna make the jump. I tell myself I should do what I want to do because one day I'm not going to be able to do it. Now is the only chance. I can only wrestle this year and next year and maybe college but only college if I do it in high school. But, I can work and do piano all year. This will only be a few months. But damn, I'm so nervous and it feels impossible to say something about it. I don't even know why I came up with the idea of joining the wrestling team. I know I can do it because it's just signup (the only sport at my school that you don't have to tryout). I can drive myself, I have a license, I can just signup, I can take time off of work so I'm in full control but fear is in the way. The info meeting is in 2 weeks, and I have limited time to make a choice. I need some help getting through this.