My Into: The Beastly Urge

Hi,
I am new here, joined NoFap on December 20, 2016 (today). I am 21 year old, male from India.

I am going to take the Reboot Challenge because of the following main reasons:

1. Lost self-control: I've been watching porn regularly since I was 16 years old. But I got severely hooked up on porn and masturbation 5-6 months ago. My frequency increased from a 2-3 times a week to (upto 2-3 times) daily [and it hurt my penis real bad] .
2. My Schedule: I realised that watching porn and masturbating a few times a day hampered my daily schedule. I wasted hours searching for the sort of porn I like(d) to see. I stopped visiting Library, the place I used to go for study. Also I gave up every engaging physical activity and gained a little over 10 kg over a period of 6 months.
3. Relationship Issues: Porn makes me feel restless. I just cannot control myself without masturbating. Being in a long distance relationship and revering the feelings of my girlfriend, I never got a chance to experience a real sexual encounter. I felt like my need were not being met, and wanted to leave her. Nothing else mattered to me. Sex was the only thing that was in my mind for hours.
4. Penal Injury: It might be rare. I had unhygienic habits, and sometimes I didn't take bath for days. During a festive season my roommate had left the city for a few days. During this time, I handled myself very roughly; I masturbated over 5 times a day for a few days. A part of my shaft & foreskin of my penis went extremely red, and has not turned completely normal since then.
5. Family Fantasies: Being an adult, I now want to grow up and stop fantasising about taboo sex.

I have decided to go off PMO for at least 90 days. My loving gf supports me for starting out this venture of mine.

PS: My English might not have been up to the mark, but I hope I make myself clear.

 

Thank-you everyone for support and encouragement!!!

 

Day 2: I felt extremely horny in the early morning today. I wanted to M very badly. I tried to control myself and after a lot of effort succeeded in it. I don't know why I did this, but I took my trousers off while still in the bed. Moreover, I spent most of my time in my room. Whenever I felt any sort of urge, I just came back to the forums and read some success stories and new resolutions.

The support I have received here is enormous and I thank the members of this awesome community for it.

I am going to continue writing up here. I shall be sharing my experience of hitting the hard mode over the weeks and how things have been working out for me.