The Revelator
New Fapstronaut
Hey, this is my nofap story.
I think I first discovered porn when I was about 11.
The first time I tried doing nofap was in the summer of 2020 when I was 14. For a long time I would struggle with cooming and watching porn but having some small streaks. In 2022 I made major strides, each month I watched porn and coomed less and less and got it down to just a few times a month. That was until around August it started going back up then I quit nofap because I lost motivation to do it. I tried No Nut November in 2022, I made it to around November 16th and then I coomed 6 times that day. February 2023 I became depressed and wasn't cooming daily but by spring I bounced back and started cooming a lot. In summer of 2023 I became a full blown coomer and have been one for most of 2024 so far. Now I'll be turning 19 on the 30th of this month and I really think the porn and cooming has taken a seriously negative toll on my life and mental health. It's a form of unhealthy comfort and escapism for me. Porn is my only real sexual outlet, I've never had sex. My relationship to it is that I use it to cope with that but at the same time I get incredibly frustrated and defeated watching others have sex while all I do is touch myself like a chump (that's how I feel at least).
I don't want to have sex unless I am married due to my religious convictions and morals but I know I also can't masturbate and it's detrimental to my psychological well being.
Wanted to join this forum to find ways to cope and recover mentally.
There's a lot more to my life but that's a very basic overview of my cooming and nofap journey in a short nutshell.
Currently I haven't orgasmed since July 14th but I did look at a bit of porn today but stopped myself after a bit.
Edit; by full blown coomer I mean that I was fapping at least once everyday since last August. Often more than once a day. I think I've fapped around 500 times since late August 2023.
I think I first discovered porn when I was about 11.
The first time I tried doing nofap was in the summer of 2020 when I was 14. For a long time I would struggle with cooming and watching porn but having some small streaks. In 2022 I made major strides, each month I watched porn and coomed less and less and got it down to just a few times a month. That was until around August it started going back up then I quit nofap because I lost motivation to do it. I tried No Nut November in 2022, I made it to around November 16th and then I coomed 6 times that day. February 2023 I became depressed and wasn't cooming daily but by spring I bounced back and started cooming a lot. In summer of 2023 I became a full blown coomer and have been one for most of 2024 so far. Now I'll be turning 19 on the 30th of this month and I really think the porn and cooming has taken a seriously negative toll on my life and mental health. It's a form of unhealthy comfort and escapism for me. Porn is my only real sexual outlet, I've never had sex. My relationship to it is that I use it to cope with that but at the same time I get incredibly frustrated and defeated watching others have sex while all I do is touch myself like a chump (that's how I feel at least).
I don't want to have sex unless I am married due to my religious convictions and morals but I know I also can't masturbate and it's detrimental to my psychological well being.
Wanted to join this forum to find ways to cope and recover mentally.
There's a lot more to my life but that's a very basic overview of my cooming and nofap journey in a short nutshell.
Currently I haven't orgasmed since July 14th but I did look at a bit of porn today but stopped myself after a bit.
Edit; by full blown coomer I mean that I was fapping at least once everyday since last August. Often more than once a day. I think I've fapped around 500 times since late August 2023.
