#Day 1 Hi everybody sad day to me, I relapsed. My P is not on the screen but worst with girl neighbours that I've saw and got trapped like with P. I want to win this battle against me. I'm in anguish and pain on my heart and feeling like I betrayed everyone I know. There's no way I can block this windows so I have to stop watching on my own which makes things even harder. I know i'm giving a bad testimony on my own neighbourhood and that's killing me inside, I just hope that God in His supreme love and mercy will grant me the strength I need to defeat this goliat. I haven't lose hope. Like the band newsboys says : "Oh lord, I'm a different man You gave me a second chance I was lost, I was fallin' apart. But you came along, and you hit the restart" I'm not giving up so easily so please brothers PRAY FOR ME !! I NEED YOU ! I've read Galatians 6.9-10 (ESV): "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up. So then, as we have opportunity, let us do good to everyone, and especially to those who are of the household of faith." It's on my signature now so I remember not to grow weary of doing good, and not to give up so I'll reap. In the meantime I'll be trying to motivate and help others to overcome as I do it too. I've started this journal to see the path i left behind me and to see the hand of the Lord and his Grace as I walk through it. Paul also said in 2 Co. 12.7-10 (MSG): "My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness. Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ’s strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become." And I've never felt weaker so now It's time to win this with God's strength!