My journal

Hi all I'm on day 16 of my reboot. I have spent 20 years pmo. And thousands of hours. In a trance like state 1000 of pounds on porn sites and can girls. I'm in a lot of trouble.

16 days has been hard and I'm yet to see any positive changes. All though I am going to stick with it.

Iv also been in a very hard relationship turn The past 6 or 7 years. Off then on then off . If recently spilt again but this time it's for good. There is no going back on some of the things we have said to each other. I know it's for the best but it still hurts. Even more so when your ex digs the knife in to let you know how happy she is every day. That the sex is so much better with her new boyfriend.

This obviously dosnt help with my addiction. As addicts we use p to get away from hurt and stresses in our life's. And without it there it's harder.

One thing I have realised today is no one cares about your problems or your life. Everyone is so consumed with there own life's and problems they haven't got time. Don't get me wrong I'm not bitter about it I don't blame them.

Today is a very very hard day. I hope i don't fail today. I know there is no good to come out of a relapse.

I'm going to keep this page as my journal sorry if it's in the wrong section. I hope to post more positive ones soon