This is my first post on here. I've been an onlooker for a while. I decided to join after finding here some good advice. Over the years I have unconsciously come to associate the Internet with P, but this community is a very nice example of what a great tool the Internet can be when put to good use. I've been PMOing since I was 13-14, and have wanted to stop, without success, for many, many years. I'm now 28, and fear that if I don't kick off this bad habit now, I may never do so. Recently, I went 8 days without PMO, which is probably my record. It may seem like a short time, but it was quite a challenge for me, so I consider it as a partial success. After relapsing, I shamelessly indulged for the next few days. But here am I again, encouraged by my recent modest success, and ready to take on the challenge again. During my recent streak without PMO, I realized quite a few interesting things about my bad habit, myself and the road to recovery. Reading this forum has made me realize the importance and usefulness of keeping a journal. I think self-accountability is an essential weapon in the fight against any vice, especially PMO which is no doubt one of the most secretive, and therefore also most pernicious, vices of our age. I would now like to officially embark on a 90 day challenge, and I will use this journal to keep track of my progress. I say "90 day challenge," though I know all too well that for me this will be a day-to-day, sometimes even minute-to-minute, challenge. However, one thing I learned over time is that one should seize every opportunity where one has a desire, even a small one, to quit PMO. For, most of the time, the desire to quit is altogether absent, and one is engulfed by darkness, and succumbs to feelings of despair, hopelessness, and depression. There is one state worse than that of being hooked on PMO, and it is that of accepting that condition as normal, justified, inevitable, and giving up, for whatever reason that may be. Our mind tricks us in countless ways to bring us to surrender. We are by nature weak and easily deceived. Thus we keep falling. However, the knowledge of our own weakness and tendency to be easily deceived can, and should, become the starting point of our movement out of self-deception. Even the smallest hope or glimmer of light should not be neglected when it breaks through the thick layer of darkness and self-complacency in which we normally find ourselves engulfed. When one finds in oneself even the trace of a will to quit, one should seize upon it at once, without hesitation. The struggle against PMO requires a radical leap out of the cave of self-deception into the world of freedom and light. The way out of PMO is not forward, but upward. Word of the day: rectitude.