My Journey Towards Peace (Journal)

Discussion in 'Significant Other Journals' started by WantsToBelieve, Oct 12, 2017.

  1. EyesWideOpen

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    My sentiments exactly. Shitty high deductible plans!
     
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  2. WantsToBelieve

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    It really honestly sucks. Literally the only thing that I use that's covered pre-deductible is my birth control and annual exam.
    If I get sick and have to go to the doctor it's a $20 copay. Plus any prescriptions needed.
    It's bullshit.
     
  3. Rachie

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    I just got caught up on your journal. I read a lot of it to WS last night. It helps him understand things from the SO's perspective. There are big chunks of your story that I relate to do freaking much. Just wanted to say thanks for sharing.:D

    Also, I totally feel ya when it comes to crappy insurance. WS and I are doing therapy but we haven't met our deductible yet and it's killing us! The out of pocket payment is horrifying:eek:
     
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  4. WantsToBelieve

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    So happy to hear that. I'm glad to have someone relate to what I've been through. Believe it or not it makes me feel so much less alone. :emoji_blue_heart:
    Feel free to message me if there's anything you'd like to run by me.
    I'm glad you guys can afford it. We certainly can't. Not yet, anyway. We're both working on getting better jobs.
     
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  6. SuperFan

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  7. Lmbo! :emoji_sweat_smile::emoji_stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:
     
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  8. Kenzi

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    Bahahahahahahahahahaha
     
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  9. Kenzi

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    Rock_Star is sad now... What is the B3 hubs doing these days??
     
  10. SuperFan

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    I couldn't resist. I saw that GIF and just started laughing my ass off.
     
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  11. Kenzi

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    Both me and Rock Star laughed
     
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  12. E.liberated

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    See how tricky the mind is. Shaking myself out here now. It started that i saw girl posts. Then I wanted to see how in general to relate here. What’s right and appropriate. Then I found some are here because of their partner. Did not understand this yet. Then while being here I started to being interested in girl posts in general. Now I realize what is happening....I take it as a training having to be weary at all times as you girls are in my life so enormously tempting. Because it’s no nice to be with you. But I won’t get sucked into this here.
    Good luck to all!
     
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  13. E.liberated

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    I like both being able to communicating open with girls and not being hooked. I easily do get hooked and do want to start something.
    But I want to continue to being more faithful as I did become in the last three years.
    I am married and have a very good cute beautiful wife.
     
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    My wife is very open very loving very understanding. She is much better person than i am.
    I have a strong drive and I always felt ashame when I went off into porn or being attracted to girls. I found this has a dynamic that is not good either as it pushes it into the forbidden. I learned to allow to react to have strong reactions and by doing this I can also learn to communicate while being under control. I did not go with another girl since three years.
     
  15. WantsToBelieve

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    Uh... Hi?
    Was there advice directed at me in here that I missed?
    Did you mean to put these in my journal?
    Or were you trying to start your own?
    Sorry, just kind of confused.
     
  16. WantsToBelieve

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    Oh. My. GOD.
    You kill me.
    That was freaking hilarious.
     
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  17. WantsToBelieve

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    Anyway. Not sure what that whole.... post-spree was about above. But let's move on.
    It's been a week since a huge fight that we had about him not doing any recovery work or talking to me about things.
    He's still not great at sharing things, and we missed check-in last Friday because we were at his parents' house.
    Playing D&D. Which is fun. I'm enjoying it.
    He started his new job yesterday. Said it's alright.
    I'm trying not to be too hard on him during this time, it's a transition. I get it.
    But I'm still struggling. I want to believe him. I do.
    But when I don't see any changes in him outside the bedroom, what do I do?
    I want him to feel like he can talk to me. About anything.
    I'm so supportive of him, in every single way.
    Why can't he do the same for me? Why can't he just pick up a simple piece of paper and read? I'm not really asking that much.
    Is the crippling fear of failure really that bad?
    Is he so afraid to fail that he won't even try?

    I shouldn't down on him so much, though.
    As of tomorrow, as long as he's been truthful, it will be 70 days for him without P.
    M has been harder for him. But he's been since 12/26 without M. Again, as long as the "truth" is really the truth.
    I AM proud of him. I just told him that today.
    Sometimes I think I expect him to do too many things at once.
    Focus too hard on our relationship without a mental "break".
    He's ADHD. I know how hard that can be.
    More later, probably.
     
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  18. I’m with you girl! I think they are just lazy. Like they want to be better but do the work to get there. It’s infuriating! Or you’re right could be fear of actually letting go of their security blanket..maybe?
     
  19. Kenzi

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    Ugh... Porn security blanket... What a image... Gag me....
     
  20. Well that and they have a case of Avoidance...the plague
     
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