My Journey Towards Peace (Journal)

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  1. WantsToBelieve

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    Thanks :emoji_hugging: When he starts, the benefits should start right away from what they told him. What those benefits are, I have no clue. I'm not sure the exact date he starts but it's this month. He just passed the drug test a few days ago, and they still have to do his background check.
     
  2. EyesWideOpen

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    Awesome!
     
  3. DemonSemen

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    Does your SO read regularly or is willing to read about this stuff?
     
  4. WantsToBelieve

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    Unfortunately that very thing has been a point of contention between us for quite a long time now. He is NOT willing to do the research unless I force him to read specific things, and until he said it might trigger him I didn't know/understand why. While it does make some sense, I feel it could be a cop-out, or an excuse not to follow through. Do you think it's legit?
     
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    That's a tough one. To be honest, it kind of sounds like a cop out. What kind of trigger is he talking about? There are a lot of work arounds for triggers to make books possible.

    Mine just doesn't like to read. He retains more by listening rather than seeing so I try to get him audio books whenever possible, especially cd's because he likes to listen when he drives.
     
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    The way he said it was that if he reads about porn, he might start imagining it. I guess even just the word porn is a trigger for him?
    Books are easier I guess, I was more encouraging him to come here and read other people's stories, but I could definitely see more triggers here than in books.
    I don't know. I agree, I think it's more of a cop out than anything else.
     
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    The insomnia was REAL last night. I mean, out of control. Up from 1:30am to 3am, then again from about 3:15 to 4:30. Then up for good at around 6:30.
    I think I need to see a doctor about this rash that I caused with my anxious itching. It's on my breasts. A very good portion of the skin.
    I don't know if it's the sweat I release while sleeping (with like 3 blankets on, mind you, I have to because he has to have a fan running and it freezes me out), or if it's just straight up anxiety.
    I've tried lotions, tea tree oil, other essential oils, medicated cream, tried sleeping without blankets so I can't sweat (torture, causes anxiety regardless), I feel like I've tried just about everything. But I have to pick at it, it's a compulsion at this point.
    What the hell can I do?
     
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  8. Did you try coconut oil?
     
  9. Kenzi

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    Yeah... Cuz that cures Everything ;)
     
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  10. And apparently it’s good for lube too :emoji_joy:
     
  11. Kenzi

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    And good in coffee!...
     
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  12. WantsToBelieve

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    :emoji_smile::emoji_smile::emoji_smile: This girl's allergic to coconut!
     
  13. Kenzi

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    At least it's not pineapple!! Lol
     
  14. WantsToBelieve

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    No pina coladas for mois.... :emoji_tropical_drink:
     
  15. Kenzi

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    Sadness
     
  16. That’s the saddest thing I’ve ever heard :(
     
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  17. WantsToBelieve

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    Well... He M'd this morning, said it was a chaser effect from last night. No P, he claims.
    Happy freaking Valentine's Day.
     
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    Thank you. I'm okay for the time being. At least he told me, right?
    I just wish he'd done something to prevent this.
     
  20. TryingToHeal

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    Yes, honesty is good. I'd rather know than not know. But you are right, there are a million other things he could do besides M.
     
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