My Journey

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by jones20, Nov 11, 2017.

  1. jones20

    jones20 New Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys, my name is Warren and I am a 20 year old guy who has been suffering from performance anxiety since high school (specifically 11th grade) I've decided to be apart of this community to help better myself and my health. Here's my back story...

    As I was young, I've always been pretty sexual from like the age of 6. I use to always play around and stimulate my genitals etc. I didn't know what it was or why I did it. However, it just felt good to me for some reason. fast forward to my pre teen years, I was introduced to porn when I logged on to the computer at a relatives house and seen porn on the history of the computer. I clicked to see what exactly it was and I ended up seeing girls completely naked for the first time. it made me feel a certain way and I loved it. ever since then porn has been apart of my life and I use to watch it all the time. Now here's where my first case of ED formed. I lost my virginity when I was in the 11th grade. but the process wasn't easy. when she pulled out condoms etc I immediately got soft and nervous about what was about to go down. I couldn't even put it on I felt so pathetic and this happened several times. I was nervous about pregnancy, someone coming in,, and getting caught. everything was overwhelming. I really made no progress with it, and after we broke up I still didn't cure my ED so I avoided sex at all cost because I never wanted that to happen to me again. now its been 2 years since sexual activity (not vaginal penetration) during those years I was still chronically masturbating to fill the emotional void I had going on so my brain needs some rewiring. I'm currently talking to this girl and I really want to have sex but i'm scared of ED because I don't want to be the laughing stock of her and her friends. whenever she talks to me about sex or gives hints I kind of make these weird gestures and kind of avoid it even though I want her. but hey hopefully this helps me get better I'm depending on this with all i've got. I recently did NoFap for a month then relapse but my goal is 90+ days I need you guys support because this has been on emotional rollercoaster for me and my sex life and it makes me depressed. Im giving it my all guys. thanks, glad to be apart of something great.:)
     
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  2. @jones20 ,

    First thanks so much for the detailed introduction. Every member who reads it will benefit from reading it.

    You are describing one of the classic problems of pmo. Which is PIED (porn induced erectile dysfunction).

    With pmo there are "perfect" images in the online porn. Headphones create auditory stimulation that is also perfect.

    Then, real life sex presents itself and the brain is so used to those images and sounds that real life just can't compete. The brain, to put it simply, is bored compared to what it is used to online.

    It's explained much better in the "Getting Started with NoFap" guide that is on the home page. If you haven't read it, I'd recommend it.

    Please keep coming back. Let us know how you are doing.

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