I have been here a few times. For me it is getting easier each time. I am not into Monk Mode and believe everyone needs to walk their own journey and learn their own lessons. Those lessons will keep repeating in some way until you learn their lesson. So for me my rules are: 1- No Porn. 2- Sex is allowed with my partner. I see her 2-3 weekends per month. 3- MO is allowed 0-1 times per week depending upon my needs. Usually fueled by a lack of sleep due to arousal. I have great confidence and belief that this is the right way for me to live.