My Journey

I have been here a few times.
For me it is getting easier each time.
I am not into Monk Mode and believe everyone needs to walk their own journey and learn their own lessons. Those lessons will keep repeating in some way until you learn their lesson.
So for me my rules are: 1- No Porn.
2- Sex is allowed with my partner. I see her 2-3 weekends per month.
3- MO is allowed 0-1 times per week depending upon my needs. Usually fueled by a lack of sleep due to arousal.
I have great confidence and belief that this is the right way for me to live.

 

Up early this morning, just before 6. I am on call for work this weekend so my girlfriend and I don't usually see each other. She lives about an hour from me but will be in town to drop her daughter off at an appointment. During that couple of hours she is coming over to catch up. So this for me of course triggers the fantasy that we may get sexual. So of course this morning equals big MW, fantasy and wandering hands. Lol. I can't help but laugh at myself. This is such a "normal" response to the situation. But when you are learning to control those urges it complicates things. So instead i am out of bed in a flash, dressed and journaling on here. It is proving to be a very worthwhile distraction.
Have a great day!

 

Here are 2 youtube videos that resonated with me today:
One is about sexuality and the other is about healing.