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My life is falling apart, out of my control.( copy pasting my same post from indian fapstronauts.)

Balancing rebooting with studying.

  1. Rowdypowerstar

    Rowdypowerstar Fapstronaut

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    My life is so fucked up now, I am in one of the lowest stages of my life. I have tried this website more than 5 times, but never able to stop masturbation and porn. My longest streak recently is 1 day, exactly 24 hours. I am a student who has 4 assignments due this week, which I didn't even start yet. Whenever I tried open on the internet for my research assignment, I ended up watching porn, I was not even able to start 1 word in my assignment from last week onwards. some days twice, I feel like I don't have the energy right, but still masturbate. Being a lonely student I need to cook myself, I don't even eat 3 meals a day due to laziness and porn addiction and college lectures. I want to start doing my assignment now, but so scared to start, because the minute I start my brain thinks about life, what's happening to me, scared about life, why am I behaving like this, I am disappointing parents. By thinking and worrying like this, I end up watching porn and wasting all day again, without proper food intake. I can do my assignment easily, the only problem is how to start without ending up like this. I need to do research, so I need the internet. Tried library but it is full all the time and no proper study spaces left. I have just masturbated 1 hour back when I opened my assignment and I skipped dinner too. I don't go to porn if I watch youtube or other websites generally, but when I open my assignment I am ending up there. My parents are paying a lot of fees and I need to end his and focus on my studies. I am here typing this with some slight dizziness and feeling worthless. Help me, I want to stop this, NoFap is not working for me, I start by motivation, but lose that motivation with 12 hours. I need support, but no one is there for me here. Being an introvert, this is one of the worst stages of my life in recent days. Moreover, I'm 20.
     
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  2. superjbro97

    superjbro97 New Fapstronaut

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    i have same problem.
    i need help i cant control my hornyness. I masturbate basically everyday.
    i wanna stop wasting my time on porn. ive tried a lot things to stop me.
    like block apps on the iphone and i got cold turkey app on my macbook but even then i found my self masturbating alot.
    as soon as im by self i go on my computer and wank. when i wake up i sometimes go on my computer and spend a whole day looking at porn.
    i want to stop but my stupid dick brain controls me. this fucking technogly is destroying my life.
     
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  3. superjbro97

    superjbro97 New Fapstronaut

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    oohh its not been 277 days it been an hour for me
     
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  4. Jane elise

    Jane elise Fapstronaut

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    I have same problem too
     
  5. JoePanther

    JoePanther New Fapstronaut
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    I can relate to your experience. I was in the same position for several years.I lied to myself countless times, that i could learn at home, but the temptation was always too strong. Furthermore it appears to me that your are stressed due to the fact that you are not able to cope with your heavy workload. Try to do less but better. You using porn to relive stress. Find another outlet to relieve your stress like music or sports or both ;) or go for walk (with somebody)

    You need to get out of your apartment an find a quite place like the library or a cafe like Starbucks, where people read or write/work. Avoid to make false excuses to stay at home.
    Imagine you are an employee who is going to work at an office and no matter what you have to show up there. If its possible try to find somebody who will learn with you at this place. Make appointments and stick to them.

    If you struggle to concentrate because of the noise, wear earplugs or get noise-canceling headphones. I can promise you nothing will change if you stay at home.
    You simply have to get out and look for an unfrequented space. You have two benefits if you learn in the library. First of all social pressure and control and secondly if you always visit this place to learn, it will get easier for you to get into a working flow and productive mood.

    Another advice is try to meditate everyday . I regularly use the App Headspace. Its guided Meditation which will help you to be more aware in your everday live. this is a short clip about the founder



    It helped me to develop a stronger mind.

    If you want to correspond you can write me a private message
     
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  6. Wedgiemo.mi

    Wedgiemo.mi Fapstronaut

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    I know what you're going through, I know what it feels like to get up and feel frustrated about having revealed and masturbated the day before. Feel the obligation of that day not to masturbate because you have other plans and you simply do not want to do it so you spend all day suffering and thinking that you will not do it but you end up doing it.
     
  7. Wedgiemo.mi

    Wedgiemo.mi Fapstronaut

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    the truth is that I suffered enough with that and I have no more solution than having to change my habits (which I still do) and unfortunately I still masturbate but not in the same way a few years ago that I masturbated 3 to 2 times a day a week and even sometimes I slept too late in order to masturbate, the worst of all is that as the years went by I no longer felt the same pleasure of my first times I was just masturbating for masturbating
     
  8. Ajar

    Ajar Fapstronaut
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    I think you're too caught up in trying to stop masturbation. I think at that point it's just wise to plan your masturbation so it doesn't get in the way of your schoolwork.

    I agree you're in a crappy situation, not being able to control your internet access or system. Could you call the network administrator and try to get them to do a parental filter? Also could you install a software onto your system, and give the password with someone to keep, or even just throw away the password?(just make sure its not blocking the stuff you need on the computer before you throw away the password).

    I think there is solution if you're a Linux user that might help as well..
    You can enable free OpenDNS. Open DNS can be used in order to block any and all adult content. You might be able to figure this out on Windows too.
    Heres a link with instructions for Ubuntu systems...
    https://itsfoss.com/how-to-block-porn-by-content-filtering-on-ubuntu/
     
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