SerotonineLess
Fapstronaut
Please, i need help :
Before you start reading, you have to know that it's not my first time on nofap, i had multiple try and so multiple relapse in my life.
Im on nofap COLDTURKEY since 2 week, i emphasise on the coldturkey because before that i was still looking at porn in some way, i was fooling my self by going to 4chan thinking " hey im not here for the porn, it's not my fault, i can manage it ".
If you do not know 4chan, porn is everywhere on this website...I will probably never use it again, it's too dangerous.
But since in stopped porn at 100%, my life is a living nightmare, stress and anxiety have become my bread and butter, i get intense internal fear about personnal stuff, i have BIG ISSUE about intrusive tought that i can't controle and many times this is the intrusive tought that make me go crazy/anxious.
Of cours when i do not have intrusive tought, i still can get very stressful anxious without reason.
One of the worst part is that i feel almost nothing, i can't seem to be able to see any beauty in this world, i feel like a ghost, i feel shit and everything look like shit, i had some spark of joy in the evening for a few day, but after 2/4 days they never really came back, in this moment i was feeling calm, happy, food was tasty and i had appetite, no more intrusive tought and even if i had a little one, i didn't cared, it's like i never had any stresse or problem, but like i said it was only for a few days and only in the evening, now it's gone.
So my question is simple, am i the only one doing nofap and having no benefit at all except the bad stuff ? I feel very lonely right now, reading people talking about how hard is it for them the first days and then it begin to become a wonderful dream after one week make me sad for my self, i feel like im on a trap and i can't escape.
When i said i got cold turkey it's 100% true, no porn, i even try to not look a women's i general in the street or on youtube, i don't even have URGE and that's what make me wonder so much, i had urge maybe 3 time and it was for something like 1 minue each, i didn't even had to try to manage it.
985
Once again, i feel very lonely right now, help me, please.
Before you start reading, you have to know that it's not my first time on nofap, i had multiple try and so multiple relapse in my life.
Im on nofap COLDTURKEY since 2 week, i emphasise on the coldturkey because before that i was still looking at porn in some way, i was fooling my self by going to 4chan thinking " hey im not here for the porn, it's not my fault, i can manage it ".
If you do not know 4chan, porn is everywhere on this website...I will probably never use it again, it's too dangerous.
But since in stopped porn at 100%, my life is a living nightmare, stress and anxiety have become my bread and butter, i get intense internal fear about personnal stuff, i have BIG ISSUE about intrusive tought that i can't controle and many times this is the intrusive tought that make me go crazy/anxious.
Of cours when i do not have intrusive tought, i still can get very stressful anxious without reason.
One of the worst part is that i feel almost nothing, i can't seem to be able to see any beauty in this world, i feel like a ghost, i feel shit and everything look like shit, i had some spark of joy in the evening for a few day, but after 2/4 days they never really came back, in this moment i was feeling calm, happy, food was tasty and i had appetite, no more intrusive tought and even if i had a little one, i didn't cared, it's like i never had any stresse or problem, but like i said it was only for a few days and only in the evening, now it's gone.
So my question is simple, am i the only one doing nofap and having no benefit at all except the bad stuff ? I feel very lonely right now, reading people talking about how hard is it for them the first days and then it begin to become a wonderful dream after one week make me sad for my self, i feel like im on a trap and i can't escape.
When i said i got cold turkey it's 100% true, no porn, i even try to not look a women's i general in the street or on youtube, i don't even have URGE and that's what make me wonder so much, i had urge maybe 3 time and it was for something like 1 minue each, i didn't even had to try to manage it.
985
Once again, i feel very lonely right now, help me, please.
