My life is ruined.

How are you to day?

 

I dont think i once almost died and i survived. Your nervous shaking may come from the belief that 7 mobths of NoFap should have done more healing and now you think that all of your life is wasted.

About 40 days i was also realy depressed. I shaked and had cold everywhere on my body. I had no energy' could barely move. But i managed to ho the gym and the only thing i did is running. And going to the gym was not easy.

Maybe its gonna help you.

 

Bro I know exactly what you are going through and have had the exact same issues and have learned how to get clear of it. This is super new-agey, but I am extreamly energy sensitive and pick up others toxic energy. Porn is super toxic and polutes your energy body. I too get intense physical symptoms that are basicly toxic energy polution from people who are toxic and i obsorb there bad energy into me when im angry at them or judge them.
What is the solutuon? I will tell you now. I have learned to do the 12 steps from AA and I goto energy healers that clean my chakras and energy body and i do intense service and volenteer work to creat positve karma.. the AA steps are so strong they take crack heads, junkies and street bums and heal their mind body and soul and turn them happy, joyous and free emotinally and spiritually. Expetaly doing the 4th step and 5th step.
I have had everything you listed and it has come back several times and when i do the steps i get free of the physical pain and have the relief you seek. It has worked for me every time!. you see, you used porn as you liked the results of escaping the fears, anger, emotinal pain of your life and stuffed all those feelings down inside. But they never went away. Now they are all coming out at once, and all the toxic energy from all the toxic people in all the porn movies you obsorbed into your cells and energy body. When you take on others energy its called being Empathic. Or an Empath. I have had the symptons you mention come back when i get inmeshed with a new toxic person, but every time I do the 4th and 5th step on them I get free and detatched from their toxic energy that is polluting me.
I hear you and I feel you completely and have expereinced what you describe exactly and have found a way out. You need spiritual energetic hygene tecniques to clean all that toxic energy out. In my jouney i have been forced to learn tons of stuff to keep clean energticly.. and if i get messed up how to clear it out asap. Its lots of work, but i have no other choice. You need to clear out all the emotinal energy you have stuffed down inside your entire life. Porn was a temporary soution to escape that pain that boomeranged on us and was a false solution now its all coming out at once.. direct message me and i can give you some weblinks to energy healers and some easy temp ways to clear out some of the toxic energy that i do in addition to 12 steps.. but the steps go to the root and clear out junk the best. There are a ton of sex addiction 12 step groups too SAA, SLAA, SA etc. All do 12 steps, but in AA gives the messge the best and fastest to get the work done and clear out that stuff from your body. Message me and i can give you some tips, weblinks, and direct advice the best i can of how to get free of the hell you are in. I know it all to well. No one wants to do the hard inner work. I only really do it when my back is against the wall and i have no other choice. It sounds like you have reached that point.. but the truth is its a simple solution that works once you do it and start applying it to your life.

 

Then the shaking is symptom of your nervous breakdown.

I cant help with that. Only a doctor can help with that.

 

Your body is breaking down because you are ashamed because you are living at home with your parents, and you are repressing those feelings to the subconscious, which moves the problem from the mental sphere to the physical. There is a risk that you either will suffer a psychosis soon or become gravely physically ill.

 

Man, I understand you 100 % per sure. I am almost the same age as you (26) and I am in the phase of NoFap that nothing actually interests me or almost nothing. I have a pretty bad headache on the left side of my head pretty much all the time and I can't concentrate so good. I had an exam 3 months ago and got an A but a week ago I failed and I learn even harder but I failed because I could not concentrate and had a horroble headache. For months I experienced (unfortunately just like you) insomnia, fatigue (chronic), dizziness, irritability, lack of motivation, anxiety, vomitting food at night, horroble horroble headaches (and when I went to the doctor he told me that I'm fine that it's nothing axtually wrong with me and when he told me my head was about to explode), shakeness,... I think with time all these bad things and issues will go away we just must be persistent you know. Because of all of the following problems and symptoms I mentioned I am currently experiencing "only" headache, stress, a little bit of shakeness and that's it. We must proceed on and not let the negative feelings lead us. We must keep fighting it's the only chance we have. We must live the life to the fullest even if we are limited we have to live our lives to the fullest as much as we can and live it every day like it's our last. I try hard to improve myself and since I'm doing it I'm becoming the best version of myself. I try not to think of my negative past experiences too much and focus on present and bright future. But never forget and I keep telling myself everyday: "Denzel, never forget what pmo has done to you. It has robbed you of your valuable time, energy, money, will, feeling that could be spent for by far more important and useful things than pmo. Denzel, never forget the pain you felt everytime you did pmo. Never forget the shame and regret that presented themselves in your body on a most demonic way. Every day is a new day. Every moment is a new moment. Be the best version of yourself and go out and fight the best you can." I keep telling this to myself every day every morning. And also my friends keep telling this to yourself that has changed my life forever: "No matter how hard it is, Or how hard it gets... I AM GOING TO MAKE IT!!!!!". And also eliminate fear out of your lives. It's only an illusion in our mind created to separate us from great achievements and from the best versions of ourselves. It's only one good fight that is in life. The best in the world is to be a warrior. Because a warrior is prepared for everything. That's why a true warrior is always happy in his heart as he knows: No matter what happens he will fight till the end and during that fight he will forget about his problems and live a full life, incredible, magic, beyond all imaginations. We can become the best we just have to fight for the right things.

 

I'm 18 years old bro and i'm fapping from 11 years old all days and a lot of them two-tree times per day , now i started to gain some sever fatique and i'm going on gym for 7 months because i want to gain some kilograms and this drag me down my advice is to stop to masturbate i started and i got allready 3 days and fell very well . get some occupations.

 

I also live with my parents now that I have removed from my apartment and I must say that I experienced insomnia few weeks ago but not because of anguish because I live with my parents all the time as I first thought but because I had a terrible edging the night before and I panniced and could not sleep till morning and thought it was because of my parents behavior (which is very good by the way) but now I am fine I do not have problems with insomnia and shakeness anymore like I used to

 

k i know im not in ur position living ur life, but if u keep saying 'my life sucks' and enforcing it how can u expect to see the gd in life? Appreciate stuff by naming 5 things ur grateful for whenever u feel bad, and if u can name more then gd, but atleast do 5, hope this helps.

 

Saneagain, I am sorry to hear about the things you have been experiencing. Just a few questions first.
When you say you have the testosterone of a 90 year old man , where you just saying this figuratively or where you actually tested for testosterone levels ? If you have not been tested you may want to ask your doctor for this.
Also, have you been tested for cortisol levels as well as thyroxine levels?
The main thing is that a lot of the symptoms you are experiencing are involved with a lot of medical conditions, including withdrawal from addicition itself. But you have gone 7 months easily so I do not think you have withdrawal symptoms.
Another thing to note, is that right after masturbation/orgasm , prolcatin levels spike and dopamine levels fall. If you have been doing this many times it may be that you have chronically low dopamine levels. This is why we find that many people with this addicition get erectile dysfunction early on in life. But this could also cause a lot of the symptoms you are experiencing. You should ask your doctor to determine if you are in the normal range of these levels based on your height and weight.

 

I take medication for dopamine it helps me a lot, not particularly for nofap, but to be able to go to work and such things.

 

You think too much, just finish your degree. And stop worrying about what others are doing.

 

That sure doesn't sound like a flatline to me. Flatlining is when you lose interest in sex altogether.

And your life isn't ruined. Your life is only ruined when you give up.

I'm very involved in Sex Addicts Anonymous in my town. A number of times, we've had a guy stop coming for several months, or a year, or more, only to start coming back. It's almost always the same story: "I decided to just dive into my fantasies and go for broke, and it's left me nothing but loss and emptiness, so here I am, ready to be serious about recovery."

The reality is that sometimes we need to learn things the hard way.

Now, I'll admit--the symptoms you're describing seem pretty severe to me. I've been super addicted to porn and sexual acting out for years, and I've never experienced withdrawls that were that significant. It makes me think perhaps there's more to your story than just PMO. I'm not accusing you of withholding information--I'm just saying there might be other factors causing you some of these physical issues.

 

Just study kid, you're wasting time. Study, get a job. Solves all your problems.

 

I feel for you I truly do? No. Just stop. You cannot empathise with him because his symptoms are SO BAD compared to yours edit.
If you want an example here. It's like someone with the common cold trying to show sympathy to someone who has cancer.