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My "Life is strange"

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by RainbowButterfly931, May 28, 2020.

  1. RainbowButterfly931

    RainbowButterfly931 Fapstronaut

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    I'm sorry for my bad English.

    I started masturbating at 13 years old. But before I was very active and sociable boy. Since then my life got very bad, because I got unsociable, became bored and coward. Also I was playing videogames. That was worsening my life. I was so addicted on videogames and porn, that I was sitting at home all my time and I hadn't any friends.

    However, one year ago I started learning programming. Since then I became more confidence and clever. However, porn addiction troubled me to achieve something. That's why I wanted to quit PMO.

    At that time my longest duration without PMO was two months. Also I was sitting in russian forum 'antio', but it was less improved.

    My life changed in one day. I have got a cousin. He is a sociable and clever human, who awesome spends his free time with his friends. This day was a New Year. My cousin spent that night with his friends, but I ... I was sitting at home. I wanted to cry, because I hadn't friend with whom I could spend my time. :confused:
    I became searching friends after it. I have got some friends with whom I can hang out. However, they are lazy and bored. I always get an idea how to spend time with friends(For example, spend a night in an abandonment, make a party on a b*tch and other ideas). I want to find friends, who are like me. But, the porn addiction trouble me to do it. I often have depressions because of addiction, problems with memory and other problems.

    I have tried a lot of different ways to fight with the addiction. I know, that our habits help us to win the addiction. That's why I run every morning and meditate every day. Also I write down all my mistakes.

    I want to get rid of this addiction forever.
     
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  3. | Nico |

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    Welcome to the community :) wish you all the best on your journey, if you have any questions or concerns please dont hesitate to ask us. Take care.
     
  4. Hi there,
    Welcome to the community, this is the right place to start your journey. It is difficult to feel lonely or lacking friends, but fortunately, we can always make new friends and we can improve our social skills as well. As you start this journey, I would suggest you to improve your lifestyle step by step. Socially and in yourself. Also look for the reasons that could make you a relapse; for example, if you relapse because of depression then search for the reasons that make you depressed and treat them. To solve social life, then I recommend you to start making a new friends through online apps like Discord or Video games. Also you may join a club at where you live. The start is difficult but everything is taken by small steps :)

    All the best!
     
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  6. RainbowButterfly931

    RainbowButterfly931 Fapstronaut

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    Thx very mach.
    Ok. I have one question. Will this turn into a diary.
    Thx for your advices. I have got some friends, however I feel, that they are not my company, where I can feel well. You said: "Also you may join a club at where you live". You meant club, such as bicycle club, football club? I agree, that the start is difficult but everything is taken by small steps. Thx.

    Thanks very much
     
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  7. | Nico |

    | Nico | Distinguished Fapstronaut
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    You can write your journal either in the under 20 or women's section. This is just the introduction section
     
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  8. Yes sports or dancing or teaching clubs. all the best!
     
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