Hello, One day it happened, at age 22, I went soft while masturbating. Literally game over. Shit happens I thought and made nothing out of it. Little did I know that 2 years later this mess would still haunt me every second of the day. Since then, my life became a hell. I was changing my life, going out more, dressing better, in short, I was ready to find a girl... That is now out of the question as long as this problem persists. I am still a virgin and it seems that it will stay that way I guess. When I girl approaches me in the club or becomes too friendly, I run away quickly or block everything. From that day till now my symptoms are as follow: - No spontaneous erections - No libido - No morning wood - Cold shriveled penis when standing - Can get somewhat erect while laying down, but not for long - When standing it is impossible to get erect - When standing I lose my somewhat erection from the laying down position immediately - Porn doesn't do anything - Shrivel and coldness goes away when laying down - No shrivel and coldness when waking up - Extreme shrivel and coldness when going to the toilet for number 2 - Masturbating and orgasming almost limp I went to the doctor for a blood test, got checked for different stuff, but I'm healthy as a fish. Urologist found nothing either. Would've been better if they found some incurable disease or something, at least it would have a clear cause then. On a really good day, I can hold and erection for 15-20 mins while laying down, but that is very very rare. Morning wood is there maybe once a month, but fades quickly when standing up. --> This gives me a little bit of hope somewhat. I quit watching porn a few months ago, masturbating went from doing it daily to 1x every 2 weeks. I am trying some pelvic floor exercises now, because the pelvic theory makes sense if I look around on the web. I think I have read every ED post on the web right now at this point lol. Recently, this problem became very hard to live with, dark thoughts are entering my mind constantly, and I recently shed the first real tear. My mind is flooded every day with 'non functioning dick'. I don't know why I still go to work everyday, because there is no future left for me in this condition. Today was the most depressing day so far since this happened, haven't eaten all day from sadness. Nobody knows about my problems and I wear a mask everyday around family or co-workers. I the weekend I drink more and more when going out also, because at least I can forget it for a few hours. I just had to write if off I guess… Thanks for reading, and if there are people with the same problems, feel free to leave a post, I am not leaving anytime soon.