My life story + 60 days

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Hello, my fellow Nofap brothers, sisters, soldiers and lovers...

First off, Thank God there's a community like this. I have been a constant fapper since the tender age of 11 (or somewhere around there) when I accidentally stumbled upon Porn sites. It first started with one of Dr. Dre's Music Video (I think it was Next Episode) the one with all the strippers in the background. It caught my attention and I was curious. Then I searched on the internet and came across a lot of nude and hardcore pictures. I remember it like it was yesterday. My heart was pounding out of my chest, I was excited, and there was a sensation I never felt in my pants. Then I started touching myself. That's when I started PMO.

At age of 18, I went to my first strip club in Los Angeles during my birthday. It was an alright experience but the problem was that I couldn't get hard. I guess the stripper who gave me a lap dance thought I was gay or that I was a serial killer or something, but the truth was that I have been PMOing so much so that real women didn't do it for me...my brain was trained to erect and ejaculate to pixels on screen...My brain was completely fucked and I fell into a spiral of eternal depression. I was praying my ass off to whoever up there would listen to my prayers. However, all hope was not lost. There was a small spark of hope when I came across Youtube channels and videos that talked about PIED and such. One particular person who I could relate to was a man named Gabe from Reboot Nation.

Anyway, I am now 25 years old. It seems like a good time to give up this weird little habit. Yes, it's weird regardless of what Society tries to tell you. Think about it. The Ancients of our time, across ALL cultures, were not chronic masturbators. They were respecting of feminine and masculine. Now, it's reversed. Majority are chronically masturbating/PMO while a small minority are not. Isn't that weird? The point is that Society will never make up its mind which is why it's such a waste of energy to follow what Society tells you.

I am not bad looking. In fact, so many people have commented on how good looking I am but get surprised when I say I don't get any action from Women. Beyond the looks, I am still human. I have problems like everybody else. Porn is one of those problems that I face with my fellow people. I want it all, just like you. I want a good relationship with the people around me. I want a girlfriend who I can trust. I want to have fun in life. I want to accomplish goals and make my parents proud. I want an awesome car instead of the bucket I drive right now. You know what I mean?

It's now 60 days in for me...

I will tell you MY experience of what happened during those 60 days.

Some of what people say about going on Nofap streak is true. Some of it is placebo. Which ones are which, you wonder? Well, that varies from person to person. For me, positive things that occurred were the following: I consume less food than before, my skin looks better, I am able to feel strong emotions again, increased intensity, better able to connect with people/talk to them, incorporating healthy habits such as clean diet, exercise, drinking plenty of water, drinking tea instead of sugary drinks, eating whole fruits instead of juice, etc. Of course, on rare occasions (like Holidays), I indulge in what Europeans refer to as "Milkshake" which is Frappaccinos at Starbucks.

Now, here are the struggles of what I had to endure during those first couple of weeks: Restless nights, Brainfog, desperation/extreme horniness (be careful because you'll do things out of character during this phase), times when I felt depressed as hell. Also, here's a big one (no pun intended): The haters will come out of the woodwork to try to stop you. They will reveal themselves to you.

Don't give into their demands...They will try to be subtle with you because they are cowards who can't face their own problems. So, I say this to all you fapstronauts out there...Don't give up and don't give in...the urges are strong but once you fight through it, it becomes a bit easier. I had relapse moments several times before successfully completing 60 days. Yes, I know...you just can't help it because certain images trigger you...but get a hold of your mental and push it to overdrive.

Now that I don't PMO, there were a few things I've noticed..

>>YES, WOMEN DO GIVE YOU ATTENTION. That's because nofap, in and of itself is a goal for you. Keeping up a nofap streak can do wonders for your confidence level and self-image. When you walk with that kind of energy, Women can feel it. There are many claims out there that say that semen retention can actually secrete Testosterone through sweat glands. Women can pick up on these pheromone, even from a distance. Women are more in-touch with their animalistic nature than Men are. That's often why you hear stories of guys on long streaks getting all kinds of crazy attention from Women and even being offered sex from these Women (I can slightly vouch for that because there was a hot girl in my Spanish class who wanted to fuck my brains out but I refused because I was in my depressive flatline phase).

The Alpha males in nature don't fap, but the Beta males do. The same goes for the HUMAN animal. Women understand this far better than Men out there...Alpha males don't fap, but the Beta males do...this is why the Alpha often times have his choice of Women flocking to him while the Betas get the undesirables and eventually marry them out of desperation.

>>I noticed that all the things I got angry at previously were merely nonsense. When someone accused me of something, I would flip my shit. Nowadays, I just mess around with them and flip the script on them. Semen retention has helped me to become a bit more quick witted and sharper with my thinking strategy.

>>Other Men respect you and the fuck boy cowards reveal themselves. I have gotten a lot of respect from other Men (real Men) and the fuck boys try their best to throw me off. However, because I know they are just fuck boys, I smirk at them. It's a subtle way of telling them "I know your weakness and I will destroy you top to bottom if you cross the line with me". The ones who have zero clue on social cues get destroyed...

>>I've become more interested in authenticity than novelty. I don't work out and train my body because I'm vain. Nope. I am training so that my mind becomes stronger. Yeah, it sounds weird and contradictory. A body that's in good shape is a byproduct of being mentally tough enough to endure the grueling workouts. Most people today are not willing to spend 30 minutes on intense workouts and would rather play video games for hours on end. Watch the excuses fly out these pansies mouths...

>>More energy. I used to be tired as hell waking up in the morning. It didn't matter how many hours of sleep I got the night before. Now, I can operate throughout the day with minimal hours of sleep. After ejaculation, your body needs about a week to produce adequate amount of sperm. This is why you are tired as hell, because your body is using up energy to produce more sperm in your sack. Fappers often OVEREAT to compensate for the lack of stored energy in their body.

Well, these aren't actually scientifically proven but these are just my theory of what happens...anyway, good luck to everyone on here!

 

During the first few weeks, I couldn't get morning wood. Then at about 4th week, I started waking up with a full strong morning wood. This is something that has not happened to me previously. I feel alive nowadays than I did when I was constantly PMOing.

 

I'm going to post up another thread on what I like to do when I'm stressed out. Check it out.

 

Nah, it's cool. We're all here to learn, share and help one another through this addiction

 

Well, the semen retention idea is the main focus point of my journey. The more you keep for yourself, the more you are able to express yourself in other forms. Oddly, this attracts many good things into my life or it just might be coincidence. Whatever the case, it's working for me so I will continue with it.

I would say that I do catch Women staring at me, from time to time, like I'm some sort of piece of meat...it's funny

I guess they can sense it and it triggers some sort of urge in them. This isn't with just Women though. I have seen Men who nod at me. They probably know what's up as well. A Man who hasn't wasted his seeds is a Man indeed.

 

Keep yourself busy. Those 60 days fly right by. I'm in this for the long haul because I want a better life, overall.

 

Best of luck to you, brother. If you have doubts in this Journey, go on Youtube and look up Nofap vloggers. They will share their experiences and tell you stories. A part of me doubts the semen retention studies as well, but what have we got to lose? I would rather slice my own belly open than to be a slave to this addiction for the rest of my life...

 

The strong emotions returned right before I hit flatline. It might be different for each person. My emotions intensified and people could tell easily if I was upset or happy or mellow. I've read that this is normal, the brain is rewiring itself and it's one of the withdrawal symptoms from not doing PMO because your brain is depleted of dopamine hits.